Monday, March 27, 2006

Tagged Again!

Sorry I haven't posted anything since Thursday. Really nothin' going on in my boring life right now. Spent the last couple of days giving my house a good cleaning, getting ready for a caseworker visit. Taking care of the kids, laundry...that's about it! Gawd, I'm so boring! I need tequila!!!

Anyway, I've been tagged with a couple of meme's so that gives me something to post, at least! Both tags came from Kimberly...Thanks, girl! Otherwise I'd be sitting here just staring at the cursor just taunting me...daring me to post something!

The first one I've done before, but it was a five weird things instead of six weird things meme. So, let's see...

1. When I read the paper, I HAVE to fold the pages back on themselves exactly. Can't stand for the paper to get messed up while I'm reading it.

2. I'm very picky about how the covers on the bed are when I go to sleep at night. Many times I've woke hubby up with my cover arranging! This is something he's told me bugs him, but I can't help it!

3. I hate cooked carrots so much I will pick the carrot pieces out of a pot pie before I'll eat it.

4. When I do laundry, it has to be done in a certain order...girls' clothes, colors, whites, jeans, then towels.

5. When I'm going to sleep, I will lay on my stomach and rub my feet along the relaxes me.

6. And finally...this is something that I don't do as much anymore, but still do sometimes...When I'm eating Crunchberries cereal, I will eat all the "crunch" part first, then as I'm eating the "berries" I will count them.

OK, now the second Meme:
1. Accent: OKIE!! :)
2. Booze of choice: Tequila
3. Chore I hate: Cleaning the bathroom.
4. Dog or cat: Cat
5. Essential electronics: Computer...TV
6. Favorite perfume/cologne: Estee Lauder Beyond Paradise or Lady Stetson
7. Gold or silver: Gold...preferably with diamonds!
8. Hometown: Oklahoma City
9. Insomnia: Often
10. Job title: Mom and Domestic Goddess
11. Kids: 2 precious little girls
12. Living arrangements: 3 bedroom apartment w/ my family
13. Most admired trait: Loyal
14. Number of sexual partners: Currently, only my husband. Throughout my life? Nunya bizness!
15. Overnight hospital stays: Never
16. Phobia: Snakes...heights...flying stinging things!
17. Quote: "Live like you were dying."
18. Religion: None really.
19. Siblings: 1 younger sister.
20. Time I wake up: Around 10am
21. Unusual talent or skill: I can touch my nose with my tongue.
22. Vegetable I refuse to eat: Brussels sprouts and cooked carrots.
23. Worst habit: Staying up too late.
24. X-rays: Only dental.
25. Yummy foods I make: Green chile burros.
26. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius

I'm not gonna tag anyone this time, but sure would love to see someone else do go ahead, if ya wanna!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

My 20th Half-Nekkid Thursday

Okay, I'll be the first to admit this is not me in the pic. I did take it, though! LOL

So, I was sitting at the computer yesterday, and Destiny was in her room playing. She'd been kinda quiet for awhile, so I went in to check on her. She's fine, of course, just having herself a little tea party or something...I don't remember now what she was doing.

Anyway, I looked down on the floor, and I saw THIS:

HALF NEKKID BABY DOLL!! I couldn't help it...I laughed my ass off when I saw it. I don't know what made her think her shoes and socks were going to fit her doll. But she's smart, do you see? The shoes are actually on the correct feet! LOL That's my girl!

Now, go and see OSBASSO for more Half-Nekkid fun! Happy HNT!
Click the red button with the lady in lingerie over there ------> for guidelines.

Oh, and ladies....check out the eye candy in my post below! ;)

Ok, Can I Just Say...

Yeah, I'd do him...He's definitely on "the list"! :)

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

I've Discovered MySpace

Actually, I can't really say I "discovered" it...I've been hearing about it for awhile now, though, and finally decided to go explore. I can't believe who I've found over there already! Several of my cousins...a few fellow bloggers...some people from high school...AND...get this, my first real love! I've tried finding him online for years!

OMG Meghan JUST said "Uh oh"!! LOL So cute!

Anyway, I got in touch with him, and I guess we'll see what happens. He actually called my Mom's house looking for me about a year and a half ago, (she's had the same phone number since I was 8) and left his number. I called him once when we were still on the road a lot but didn't get to talk long at all. Then I lost his number.

Kinda weird, ya know, talking to him again. I remember a few years after we'd broke up my best friend at the time told me that he'd said he didn't want anything to do with me. No reason given, so I don't know what that was all about, but I didn't see or talk to him again for several years. Then right before we'd moved to small town Oklahoma...matter of fact, we were in the process of moving...we ran into him at a restaurant we'd stopped at for lunch. Of course, I looked like hell since we'd been moving stuff all day...sweatpants, hair just in a ponytail, no makeup...bleh. He STILL has the power to make my heart pitter patter and give me butterflies in my stomach. Why is that?!?! I am very happily married now and don't want to be with him or anything like that.

I guess part of me somewhere deep down still has feelings for him. After all, he WAS my first real love.

Anyway, come check me out on My Space! And if anyone knows how to make a button for my links in my sidebar for my MySpace site, please let me know!! Their code for links isn't working right for me.

Monday, March 20, 2006

Happy First Day of Spring!!

You wouldn't know it was spring by stepping outside my door right now. It is still cloudy and pretty chilly. The rain has stopped for now though. Wonder if the burn ban got lifted...

I had a picture posted here, but it was only supposed to be here temporarily so I could change my profile now it's over there--------->

Made someone smile to see it here, and that makes ME smile! :)

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Moving On...

No, no...I'm not moving on from blogger! Just from my "bad" review. I ain't going anywhere, don't worry. Thanks, y'all, for your reassuring comments that you like my blog just fine the way it means a lot more to me than THEIR opinion.


When I got up out of bed Saturday morning, I came into a living room that looked like a tornado had gone through. It seems my husband decided to rearrange the furniture, and Oh. My. God. what a freakin' mess!! Wish I'd took pictures to show you guys. I hate when he gets like that, 'cuz more often than not, he'll start a project and not finish it for days, or maybe weeks. Drives me nuts!

I asked him if his Chi was off or something, and if he'd decided to do some feng shui. (pronounced fung schway...I found that out when I was checking some stuff out about it...did not know that!) Heather, aren't you proud of me? Thought you might get a kick out of the cartoon I found too. :)

To get it all done and the living room back together, I had to help. SO not how I'd planned to spend my Saturday! It took all day! Gotta say, though, I do like the new arrangement. It really opened the room up and there's more room for baby stuff! Guess it made for a productive Saturday.

Friday, March 17, 2006

So I Got Smacked

Curiosity got the better of me and I submitted my blog for a review over at I Talk 2 Much and long story short, they don't like me. I got NO smacks, apparently based on my last few posts. It also seems that they really look down their noses at those of us who participate in Half-Nekkid Thursday.


Wednesday, March 15, 2006

My 19th Half-Nekkid Thursday

Guess what? Tonight sometime I will have my 10,000th visitor! So be sure to check the sitemeter at the bottom to see if it's you!

The great and powerful Os, Grand Poobah of all things Half-Nekkid, has decreed that this week we incorporate some green into our HNT pics in honor of the coming St. Patrick's Day. I didn't have a lot to work with, so how's this? GREEN EYES!!!

No??? Okay, well then, how about THIS???

For more Half-Nekkid fun, go and see Osbasso!! Click on the lady in lingerie over there in my sidebar for guidelines. Happy HNT! :)

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

The Redbud Tree a sure sign of Spring in Oklahoma! Yay!

I took this out behind our apartments...there is a little creek that runs behind it. Lots of trees and when I walked back there just awhile ago I saw the Redbuds are in bloom! :) They are also the Oklahoma state tree. Just a random bit of info...btw, this is not the prettiest example of this type of tree, but I was excited to see it anyway!

Here's a picture of a much prettier version, found on the web:

Monday, March 13, 2006

Bill Engvall

...of "Here's your sign" fame...I just LOVE him!!!

I'm watching this:

right now...I've seen it a dozen times already and it STILL cracks me up!

Here's your sign!

Monday, Monday

My weekend went pretty well...MrKB and I went out to the casino Friday night and left the girls with Grandma for the night. Wish I could say we won a whole bunch of money, but nope. Still had a good time though!

Saturday we went running around for awhile with my Mom before going to pick the girls up from his Mom's. Went to some garage sales...I found a bunch of snowman things for next Christmas, a cute little pair of tennis shoes for Meghan, and some other little odds and ends. Not a lot of garage sales going on yet, but it won't be long! It was a nice weekend weather-wise, mostly in the 70s. Now it's cold again, 45 degrees and the wind is blowing pretty hard, making it feel like it's the 30s. Freakin' Okie weather!

After garage sales, Mom took us out for lunch to celebrate MrKB's birthday. He said to tell y'all Thank You for the birthday wishes, you helped make his day!

Sunday we went to Andy's birthday party. It was held at this place called "Maximum Dodgeball". That place kinda sucks, really. It was basically just a small gym floor and a few wooden benches. The kids had a good time throwing balls back and forth at each other, though. No rules to it, just throwing balls and trying to hit someone. In my opinion, not the best place for a kid's birthday party, but oh well.

Meghan is 11 months old today! I can't believe her first birthday is just a month away! Where has the year gone?!? Still no teeth yet. Yesterday she was running a low-grade fever and was kinda fussy, so maybe they'll make an appearance soon. I need to start figuring out what we're going to do for her birthday. Will probably just have a get-together here at our house with family or something. I do want to get one of those little round birthday cakes just for Meghan...we'll sit her in her high chair, put it in front of her and just let her go to town! :)

Nothing else going on with me...Gotta do the domestic thing and clean the house, do laundry, etc. Blah. Wish I could get a maid, but I suppose having those things to do keeps me from being totally bored every day. May spend next weekend Spring Cleaning. I need to go through the girls' clothes and find stuff for a garage sale at the end of the month in my parents' neighborhood. Lots of baby stuff for sure....

Saturday, March 11, 2006



Today is your birthday, and I wanted to take a moment to let you know how very much you mean to me. We've been together for just over 12 years now, married for 11, and I am still so in love with you!

You make me feel so special, and you always have. My confidence and self-esteem has grown so much since you've been in my life! I am a very lucky woman to be married to my very best friend.

This past year has been our most difficult yet...not because of problems between us, but the challenges that have been thrown at us one after the other since we had two beautiful little girls come into our lives. With all it's challenges, it's also been the most rewarding, and I can't wait for the day they are adopted and officially "ours"! You are a wonderful Daddy, and your girls absolutely adore you!

I love this picture of Destiny brushing her Daddy's hair, and I love that we have a picture of your now 13-yr-old Cherokee doing the very same thing at that age. :)

Destiny really is "Daddy's Girl"!

Meghan, at least right now, is more "Mama's Girl", but I know she loves her Daddy too! After all, she does say "DaDa" a whole lot more than "MaMa"! No matter what, though, she's always going to be your baby girl!

And of course....I love you very much! You are my heart and soul, and every day with you is something I'm deeply thankful for.

Happy Birthday Baby! I hope the day is great! :)

Friday, March 10, 2006

Sometimes I Wish I Had a Job to Go To

I'm lucky in the fact that MrKB makes (barely) enough money for us to get by without me having to work. But there's days like this when I'm bored to death that I really wish I had a job. It would at least give me something to do outside of my normal daily routine with the girls.

Yep, I'm bored.

Unfortunately, right now DHS prefers that I stay at home with the kids. I don't mind, really, but sometimes you get to a point where you really crave adult conversations and interaction. It only goes so far with a 3 year old and an almost 1 year old, I'm telling you. Maybe when this is all over and we get the girls adopted I will either go back to school or work. Until then, I'm stuck at home every day doing the same old, same old with the girls. Routine is good, I know, especially for Destiny at the age she is, but damn.

ANYWAY...what to blog about? This weekend is going to be birthday filled. MrKB's birthday is tomorrow, and Andy's is on Sunday. Not sure what we'll end up doing for MrKB's day, but Sunday we'll be going to Andy's birthday party at some place called "Maximum Dodgeball". Yeah....might be a lot of fun (it will be for the kids) but then I might just come home with a massive headache from listening to a bunch of screaming and hollering 6 year olds.

Oh, MrKB didn't end up getting financing for his motorcycle from the other place either. They came back and said there's something on his credit report showing that we owe $40,000 to a bank we used to have an account with back in 2001. FORTY THOUSAND FREAKIN' DOLLARS!!! There is NO fuckin' way. We never took out any loans or anything like that, so we have no idea where this is coming from. So now we gotta get a copy of both our credit reports (I did this online back in September '05, and this was not on there) and see what all is on them. Then we're gonna have to contact this bank and find out what the hell they think we owe them that much money for. We really don't have a clue. If it does for some reason turn out to be a legitimate debt, which I really doubt, then we'll have no choice but to file bankruptcy.

When I got our credit reports online back in September, all that was on them was mostly old medical bills and stuff like that. Damn sure wasn't showing any debt for no $40,000. And what I don't understand is why didn't someone else tell us this before MrKB went and had his credit checked several times trying to get this bike? I know it hurts your credit the more inquiries have been made on it. Sigh.

He's not giving up getting a motorcycle yet, though. He's just not gonna be getting a brand shiny new one like he was wanting. Now he's gonna have to settle for something "new to him" and find one used that he can pay cash for straight up. And yes, we are getting enough back from taxes that he'll be able to do this and he is about giddy with the thought of being able to go up to someone and plop the cash in front of them and say "Here ya go, gimme the key!" LOL I'm not letting him spend the entire tax return on a motorcycle though. I have some major dental work I have to get done (and not looking forward to in the least) and I also want us to be able to go out to the casino and have a REALLY good time just once!

Our family reunion is coming up in April. I can't wait! It's like a mini-vacation for us since his family does reunions for a 4 day weekend, Thursday to Sunday. We won't be able to get there until Friday, but that's okay. It's held every year at Quartz Mountain State Park, which is a beautiful area. I've gotta get my fishing license soon, 'cuz I definitely plan to do some fishing! Also can't wait to see the looks on people's faces when we show up with TWO kids when before we didn't have any. LOL Should be fun!

That's all I've got for now. Y'all have a great weekend!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

My 18th HNT & My 100th Post!!! :)

WooHoo! Can you believe it?? My 100th post!! And on a Thursday, which means cool is that?

Before I get to the HNT, I promised Scotty that I would answer a question he posed to his readers in exchange for him participating in the 7 Songs meme. Always one to keep my promises to the best of my ability, here's the question: "Who in your life has had the most influence on you and why?

My answer? First person that came to mind was my Daddy. This man is not my biological father, but long ago earned the right to be my Daddy. I was just a year old when he and my Mom got married, and he immediately adopted me as his own. He's taught me so much over the years...he made sure I knew how to change a tire, how to change the oil in my car, how to check and fill the various fluids...anytime I had a question about something he would often grab a pencil and paper and either write things out or draw me diagrams of how something worked. (I particularly remember this happening when I asked him how gas got to the engine in a car...he drew a complete diagram and I even learned how pistons worked that day.)

My Daddy taught me the importance of staying in school. He led by example, too..he was taking college courses working on his Bachelors and then Masters degrees in Physics throughout pretty much my entire school career. I know he wishes I'd pursued more college myself, but I haven't yet...I will though! I want nothing more than to make my Daddy proud of me.

I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for him, so I definitely consider him to be the biggest influence in my life, along with my Mom. :)

Now, without further ado...I finally have a pretty bra worthy of being the subject of an HNT here is my first boobie shot! Enjoy, 'cuz no tellin' when this will happen again!

For more half-nekkidness, go on over to Osbasso's! He'll hook ya up!

Happy HNT! :)

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

7 Songs Tag

I was tagged by Midwestern City Boy for this one!

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

Okay, well, I rarely listen to the radio, so I'm never current on the hit songs of the week. Instead I listen to CDs mostly. I have a couple of mixes that a friend made for me that I've been listening to a lot lately. I'll list my 7 favorites between these two CDs. That work for you? Good!

1. "Picture" by Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow- I REALLY like this song a lot. MrKB and I are thinking about singing it on karaoke out at our family reunion this year. That should be fun!

2. "In the Air Tonight" by Phil Collins- Definitely a classic!

3. "Doing It All for My Baby" by Huey Lewis & the News

4. "Unforgettable" by Nat King Cole- in my opinion, one of the most romantic songs EVER.

5. "Whiskey Lullaby" by Brad Paisley & Alison Krauss- A sad, but absolutely beautiful song.

6. "Angels Among Us" by Alabama- This song has brought tears to my eyes, not so much because it's sad, but it just talks to my heart. I believe in Angels!

7. "My Life" by Billy Joel- I've loved this song for years and still do today!

So, there ya 7 songs. I've got quite the mix there, I think...yep, I like all different kinds of artists, but I notice I tend to lean towards the sad or romantic songs for some reason. I do like a number of get-up-and-dance type songs too, but there wasn't room for them here.

I'll get MrKB's 7 songs from him when he gets home from work. :)

Oh yeah, I almost forgot! The 7 people I'm gonna tag...

1. Roximoon
2. Boo
3. April
4. MrsCoach
5. RedneckDiva
6. Scotty
7. Monica (the Cracked One) :)

Yep, get to it! I wanna know what songs you're into right now! Have fun!

Monday, March 06, 2006

Been Busy!

Hope y'all had a good weekend! Mine was okay, just busy.

Friday we went to the DHS office to get some forms the caseworker said she had for us to use to try and get Meghan's SS#. All it ended up being was a copy of the court proceedings last time we had court, and an application for a SS# signed by her. So then we had to go BACK to the SS office, and this time we got called into the back instead of at a window. (I have no idea why.) We told the guy there what was going on and that we needed her SS#, showed him all our paperwork, he talked to his boss and now we have a SS# for Meghan!! YAY! Turns out she's had one all this time. Probably from when the hospital sent the information on her. Just nobody at DHS bothered to go find out what her number was...hell they didn't even bother to make sure they got a copy of her birth certificate, and just assumed her last name was the same as her bio mom's. It's's the same as ours. Just like all the rest of the kids, with the exception of Kelsey, who is their mom's daughter from when she was married long ago.

That's a whole 'nother set of problems right there. Now I've got to get the caseworker to get Meghan's medical card changed to have the right name on it.

After all that, we were finally able to go down and get our paperwork in to have our taxes filed. We'll find out tomorrow what kind of refund we'll have.

Saturday we went out to the motorcycle shop to see about getting MrKB the bike he's been wanting forever. Financing for this particular bike was turned down due to "limited credit". A curse, I guess, of trying to avoid credit cards! All is not completely lost, because there's another place they sent us to for financing. I really hope it goes through because MrKB is driving me nuts on how much he wants a motorcycle. He told me that day that he "has everything he needs to be happy except for his bike." LOL Besides, it would be a good "second vehicle" that he can drive back and forth to work. It would leave me with the van so I'm not always stuck at home all day while he's at work, and it gets better gas mileage too.

Sunday I didn't do a whole lot of anything. Just hung around in my jammies all day and read some blogs, played games at Pogo. Needed to clean my house and do laundry, but I figured it'd still be there today. At least my kitchen is clean!

My nephew spent the night last night 'cuz MIL had to go to some sort of meeting at 8am this morning. I'll find out what that was all about when she comes to pick him up. He's STILL not in school anywhere. All the schools she looked into getting him transferred to are not taking new students right now. I kinda thought she might have this problem, with it being so close to the end of the school year. I just hope he doesn't end up having to repeat his grade from all the work he's missed. Poor kid.

This next Saturday is MrKB's birthday...he'll be 36 this year. That's one of the reasons why I really hope he gets his bike, that'll be like the best birthday present ever for him. Yes, I worry about him riding a motorcycle, but it's not like he's never rode before. Besides, he's a professional driver and has never had an accident. I figure since he drives 18 wheels all the time, 2 is not gonna be a problem! I am making sure that he definitely wears a helmet at all times though...can you believe there is not a helmet law in Oklahoma??! Makes no sense...gotta wear a seatbelt, and kids have to be in carseats until a certain age, but it's okay to splatter your brains all over the road on a motorcycle!

Well, that's it! Nothing incredibly exciting, but it's my life in a nutshell.

Oh yeah, one more thing....MrKB and I made time for each other last night, if ya know what I mean! :)

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Sorry, No HNT Here Tonight

I'll be back for HNT next week, I promise! I'm just not feeling it tonight. Don't worry about me, I am doing a bit better. Spent most of the evening curled up in MrKB's arms, which was just what I needed. :)

Check this out, though...He called the caseworker again today to find out about getting Meghan's S.S.#. She asked us AGAIN if we had her birth certificate. The answer was still NO...duh! Apparently DHS doesn't have it either (or she just doesn't want to mess with it) so now I have to go down to the Health Department tomorrow and get a copy of the birth certificate myself, and then go to the S.S. office and get Meghan a number. In other words, doing their job for them. Wish she would've told us this two weeks ago when we first called. We could've had taxes filed by now.

In other news....Destiny has been wearing "big girl panties" during the day since this past Saturday. She's doing really well, only had one minor accident on Saturday night. She was so cute when we had gone to MrKB's Aunt's house for a get-together. She kept pulling the panties up from her jeans to show anybody who'd look, and saying "Look! Like Mommy's!" LOL Only problem she's been having is when I put pull-ups on her for nap or for the night, she's been peeing in them again big time. I'm talking filling them up so full it looks like she went swimming in them or something! The whole reason I decided to try panties on her was because she was doing so well at staying dry all the time, even when sleeping. Now it's like she thinks that just because she has a pull-up on that it's alright to pee in them. I hope she gets over that real soon!

Anyway, y'all go and enjoy HNT, and I will check you out later, mmmkay?

I'm Okay...I Think...

Yeah...that last post was kinda depressing, wasn't it? I'm sorry you guys.

I am in a funk. I don't feel like even getting up out of bed in the morning right now, but I have to for these little girls. I'm sure it's probably a hormone thing, PMS ya know. Which when I think about it just depresses me even more because it means I'm gonna have yet another period that I don't want.

This happens every month. See, I still have hope that I will get pregnant (by some miracle) and every month when a period starts it's still like a punch in the stomach. I guess since it's been almost 13 years of this now I should probably accept the fact that it's never going to happen. But I just can't. I don't know how to explain it.

This has been a long and difficult road.

Please don't think that I don't realize I am lucky to be Mommy to Destiny and Meghan. I know this, and I am grateful for the chance. There is always going to be that want, that need, to have my own child. Unless you've experienced the heartbreak of infertility yourself, I don't think you can truly understand.

Okay, I'm gonna stop this here before I just cry like a baby. I want to leave you with something that was shared with me yesterday. Please click the link and check this out...maybe then you can begin to understand.

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