Yeah...that last post was kinda depressing, wasn't it? I'm sorry you guys.
I am in a funk. I don't feel like even getting up out of bed in the morning right now, but I have to for these little girls. I'm sure it's probably a hormone thing, PMS ya know. Which when I think about it just depresses me even more because it means I'm gonna have yet another period that I don't want.
This happens every month. See, I still have hope that I will get pregnant (by some miracle) and every month when a period starts it's still like a punch in the stomach. I guess since it's been almost 13 years of this now I should probably accept the fact that it's never going to happen. But I just can't. I don't know how to explain it.
This has been a long and difficult road.
Please don't think that I don't realize I am lucky to be Mommy to Destiny and Meghan. I know this, and I am grateful for the chance. There is always going to be that want, that need, to have my own child. Unless you've experienced the heartbreak of infertility yourself, I don't think you can truly understand.
Okay, I'm gonna stop this here before I just cry like a baby. I want to leave you with something that was shared with me yesterday. Please click the link and check this out...maybe then you can begin to understand.
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11 comments:
that was very powerful... my heart goes out to you...
have a better day... u deserve it. :)
Here is a little something to make you feel better. Your sweet baby feet make 100, completing my foot project!!!
MG: Thanks, sweetie, I'm trying!
Monica: Very cool! That did make me smile. Thank you!
{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}
Ain't it grand? Every time a cycle ends it's like a grief process don't you think?
big hugs,
Oh mamaK, I am sorry. I honestly have no idea what you must be going through, but my heart aches for you.
you are a wonderful young woman with a big kind heart..quit knocking yourself..you are doing fine, these emotions are normal, you are normal.
Luv ya
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You think the Big Man Upstairs wouldn't be such a meanie and at least give you respite from having your period if it's not really doing anything.
LOTS OF HUGS! CHIN UP!!
Again, {{{{{{{big hugs}}}}}}}
hugs sweetie
My heart goes out to you. HUGS.
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