My 13th Half-Nekkid Thursday

A quick update before I get to the HNT pic...The PPR went okay, I guess. Caseworker again stated that DHS wants Andy placed with us. Bad news? They are still saying that nothing can be done as far as the adoption on the girls until things are decided about Andy. Even though the judge already okayed it. Apparently she can OK it all she wants but the State office won't proceed until placement on all the kids is decided.

That made no sense to me. Since when is DHS higher than a judge's decision??? We finally got ahold of our lawyer today and we will be going in to see him on Friday to discuss the case. Maybe he'll be able to do something regarding the adoption, I don't know. Also, the adoption is not going to cost us anything, but we found out that for him to help us fight for Andy, it's going to cost...and come out of our pockets. We will at least need him for the mediation hearing. I don't know how much it will cost, but if we can't afford him or get something worked out, I don't know what we will do. Might have to end up giving Andy up.

Anyway, I know y'all are here for HNT, but I wanted to post a bit of an update for those who cared.

This week's HNT is what I consider to be my best feature. Lately they are very tired! So here ya go.....My eyes! BTW, this is without makeup...not even mascara. You should see 'em when they're all dressed up! LOL

Let Me Introduce You...

...to my friend Bexxie!

Bexxie is an internet friend of mine from Australia. We've known each other for about 5 years now, used to chat all the time in an ICQ chatroom. She's really sweet, maybe a little weird (hehe!) and I love her to death!

Bex recently decided to join me over here in blogland and started her own blog. Do me a favor, go on over, check out her new place and show her some blogger love!

Today MrKB and I have that permenancy placement review to go to. I'm a bit nervous about it, since I have no idea what's going to happen. I hate unknowns.

Still haven't got ahold of our lawyer yet either. Playing phone tag basically. Very frustrating.

I'm so boring...nothing to write about! I need to clean the house, but I don't feel like it. It's not that bad, really...just a bit cluttered. I keep it looking pretty decent 'cuz I never know when someone from DHS will pop by unexpectedly.

That's all folks!

SHE SAID IT!!

Meghan said "Mama"!!!!

Oh, I think I'm gonna cry!

Well This is Fun...

This morning all three of the kids (Andy's here for his weekend visit) have got the shits. No idea what it's from, they didn't all eat the same thing, so I figure it's a bug from somewhere.

That, and the baby has a rash that just won't go away...and she's finally teething....poor thing probably doesn't feel very good today.

Sigh...at least they're not throwing up.

The Saga Continues...

As my regular readers know, we had to go to court yesterday regarding the kids. Things went better this time around...I didn't end up leaving extremely upset and in tears.

If you saw my edit to my HNT post, you know the big news. The judge gave the OK for us to move forward on adopting the girls. As far as they go, it's just a matter of the adoption paperwork getting started and being filed. We go back to court in April, and hopefully one of the things that happens then is the finalization on the adoption. I'm so excited about this, and it takes a load off of my mind.

Andy's situation is still undecided. His fosters had a lawyer in court with them this time, which was not good. He was saying how attached they were to him and how they don't want to lose him...many tears have been shed in his office over this little boy, blah, blah, blah. He told the judge that they should move forward with adoption.

The judge didn't think it was fair that they had representation in court and we didn't. She ordered a mediation hearing and then we go back to court April 24th.

DHS caseworker told the judge she wants him with us. So that was good, at least.

Everyone kept going on about the "best interests of the child". Just because Andy may be attached to the fosters doesn't mean it's his best interest to stay with them. Though the judge did say that if they ended up with him she would court order continued visits. But still...it's his best interest to be with actual blood family in my opinion. He's got that right. The right to know exactly where he comes from, and to know his extended family that loves him. We can teach him things that the fosters can't.

It's not like his family is full of drug fueled abusers after all. If it were a danger to him to be with us, then I could see him being permanently placed with them. But it's not the case. He's perfectly safe and loved with us and our families.

They tried to bring up the smoking issue again, but one of the lawyers that was there spoke up and said that smoking is not the issue here. We told the judge that we had quit since the last court date. Then the CASA worker brings up MrKB's mom again, saying that SHE smokes and is around the kids a lot. I spoke up and said she is NOT around them a lot, and when she is she doesn't smoke around them. Then MrKB told the judge that she is working on quitting also and we are supporting her and hoping that seeing what we've done will be a good influence on her. The judge nodded her head and nothing more was said about it.

So we will see what happens next. On the 25th, we will be going to a Permanency Placement Review at DHS. February 4th we have to have another "family meeting" with our family care provider, but this time the fosters are going to be there too. I really don't know what that is going to accomplish, and we're not real comfortable with it.

Oh yeah, in court the therapist also was saying that Andy's been having some behavior problems. I'm sorry but that can't be blamed on us. We've requested another therapist's opinion since this one is biased toward the fosters. Also, supposedly Andy has said he doesn't want to go when it comes time for visits with us. This was news to me since he's never showed any resistance to coming to our house. A lot of times he'll run right out the door to our van without saying goodbye even, and we have to have him come back and say his goodbyes.

We are getting so tired of all the bullshit. It's just getting ridiculous. It's ALMOST enough to make us give up and say fuck it, they can have him. That's what they are hoping for, I think. Ain't gonna happen!

Anyway, we are getting back in touch with our lawyer that we've talked to on and off about the case. Next time we will have our own lawyer in the courtroom and I bet they're not expecting that!

That's all I have to say!

My 12th Half-Nekkid Thursday

*EDIT* Not to take away from HNT, but we went to court today about the kids...Things with Andy are still up in the air (more on that later) but I couldn't wait to tell y'all the big news: The judge gave the OK to start the adoption process on the girls!!!! WE ARE OFFICIALLY GOING TO BE ADOPTING DESTINY AND MEGHAN!!!! I'm very relieved and excited and just had to share! :)

Sorry, if you were lookin' for more lingerie shots this week, I ain't got 'em!

Instead, I wanted to share a picture of the very first time I ever got to hold Meghan. This was taken at the hospital when she was about two weeks old, a few days before we got to bring her home. Her little hand is blurry 'cuz she decided to move right at that moment.

Since all you can really see of me is the side of my head and all my hair, I think this counts as half-nekkid, don't you?

For more half-nekkidness, go and see Osbasso, Grand Poobah of all things Half Nekkid!! Click on the red button with the lady in lingerie for guidelines.

Happy HNT! :)

Many Thanks!!

Thank you to all of you who took the time to comment on my last post! I really do feel a lot better about the situation. Destiny is still getting into trouble a lot, and still gets on my nerves, but I love her very much and we will be okay. I was so relieved to hear that I'm NOT the only Mom who has felt this way...sometimes I think she'd be easier to take if I HAD got to have that time with her when she was a baby. Maybe that's true, but then maybe not.

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger....right?? All I know is I am in this for the long haul. If I have anything to say about it, this will be her LAST foster home...it is going to be her FOREVER home.

Something else I have been thinking about, mostly since seeing Aughra's post with her big news. Even though I have these two little girls in my life now, I still desperately want to be pregnant and have a baby of my own with the man I love more than anything. I've tried so long and so hard, all the while watching my brother-in-law have kid after kid that he needed like a hole in his head....while watching my own sister have two kids. That was particularly hard for me. I am the oldest and was supposed to have kids first. Plus, she always said she didn't want kids! All my cousins, except for one, have had babies now. I still feel left out. And I still get a little jealous and envious when I hear someone is pregnant. I am happy for them, don't get me wrong....I wouldn't wish what I've been through on anybody. But it is still hard. Something is obviously wrong somewhere, and I can't afford to find out what it is.

Having Meghan in my life has helped tremendously in easing the pains in my heart. I am scared to death that something will happen for her to be taken away from me, and I don't think I could take that kind of pain. If that was to happen, you will surely find me locked up in a mental institution somewhere! But let's not think about that!!! Positive thoughts, right??

Lots of people told me when we first got Meghan, "Watch, now that you have the baby and are gonna have more kids, you will get pregnant since you won't be dwelling on it as much." Well, here it is 8 months later and still not pregnant. I know, you're thinking, "You've got so much going on already, why in the world would you want more?!?" I don't know. I guess this desire for my own child will never go away. Maybe it's not meant to be...but I sure hope it happens someday.

Anyway...we go back to court this Thursday. After what happened the last time, I am not looking forward to going. Hopefully I am worrying about nothing, and it will be completely different this time around. The biggest thing I'm hoping for is the judge will want us to go ahead and start adoption on the girls. I will feel so much better once they are adopted. I won't have to worry about them being taken from me anymore. There's no reason for them to be taken away, but it's still something you worry about in this kind of situation, believe me.

I'm not expecting any major decisions to be made regarding Andy. Maybe only a court order that we get him on his Spring Break, but that's still a ways away. Apparently we could have had him for at least a week over his Christmas break, but we just didn't think about the fact that he was out of school, and that if we'd asked we could have had him for a longer period of time. Not used to having a school-aged child. This was brought up at the last counseling session...they want us to be having more time with him than just the weekends, but him being in school makes that difficult. The reason being, is that when the judge does decide that he should be with us, she's gonna want him moved right then. The CASA worker and the therapist want him to be used to spending longer amounts of time with us before this happens.

Boy, I've just rambled on and on in this post. All I had originally intended was to say THANK YOU to y'all who commented in the last post. You really made me feel loads better, and it meant a lot to me that so many took the time to comment and share their views. More than you could ever know.

And oh yeah....Diva?? I think you NE bloggers need to come on down into the City and we could all go out to the new casino at Remington. Did ya know that the majority of the machines there don't have those stupid bingo cards on them?? No Redball though..they need to get that. Whatever, though, I'd love to meet up with y'all somewhere for a Girl's Night...that'd be so awesome! :)

Wandering Thoughts

For days now, I've sat down here and tried to get things out of my head. So many things being tossed about and I just haven't been able to sort them out enough so they might make sense to y'all on here.

The biggest thing that's been on my mind is in regards to a fight that I had with MrKB. This is deeply personal, so bear with me, okay?

This fight, or maybe you could call it more like an argument, or a difference of opinion, centered around Destiny. You all know she just turned 3 years old, and if you have kids, you know how they can be at that age. Destiny, plain and simple, gets on my nerves quite easily. MrKB thinks I am too hard on her a lot of times, and that I'm too quick to lose my temper with her. I try not to, I really do. I love her very much and can't picture life without her anymore. I do tend to get angry at her easier and more often than MrKB. I told him that this is probably due to the fact that I am with her 24 hours a day, 7 days a week...while he goes off to work for at LEAST 9 hours a day. The other day he worked 16 hours and didn't see her at all that day since she was still asleep when he left, and had already gone to bed by the time he got home. When she keeps getting in trouble for the same shit all the time, it's easy for me to get frustrated with her. He sees this, and can't understand why I get so mad. "She's only 3" he says. (She wasn't yet 3 at the time we had this fight, but close enough) I said, "Well, if you had to keep getting onto her for the same shit over and over again, you'd be frustrated and quicker to get upset too."

Anyway, that's part of it related to Destiny. The other part is he thinks that I don't feel the same way about Destiny that I do Meghan, the baby. He's right, I fear. Don't get me wrong, I love them both very much...I just don't have the same bond with each of them. Meghan, I have had since she was just 3 weeks old, straight from the hospital...nobody else has been her Mama but me. So I've been able to do all the "normal" bonding with her. Destiny was already 2 1/2 and had been through four other foster homes, plus being with her biological parents, before she came to us. I have bonded with her to a point. There is nothing I wouldn't do for her...and if someone were trying to hurt her or take her from me, you better believe I would fight for her. But I don't feel especially close to her. She doesn't (at this point in time) bring me the same joy to my heart that Meghan does.
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A little while later...I had to stop writing because I was making myself cry...

Anyway, I don't know what it is in regards to Destiny and me. Sometimes the very sound of her voice irritates me. I have had such guilty feelings about all this...what kind of mother am I??? What kind of mother feels this way toward her child? One of my worst thoughts, and this is VERY difficult for me to admit...I didn't even want to tell MrKB I had thought this...sometimes I wish that it was JUST the baby we were dealing with. It is not the case, I know. It would be SO much easier if it was. Admitting this to MrKB has got him all worried about me. He wonders now if I am going to be able to handle everything. The night we had this fight, I had pretty much what I would call an emotional breakdown. I cried...I cried long, and I cried hard. I felt like I was just falling to pieces.

Then there's Andy....Oh, he's a whole 'nother set of stressful things. You know we are STILL battling to even get him in our home. We are making progress, but there's still that chance the judge at court will decide to just let his current foster parents keep him. First it was the "why didn't you guys come forward sooner" issue...then there was the "me bonding with him" issue...now it's the smoking thing. We go back to court on the 19th of this month. Wish us luck!

Andy also comes with a lot of health issues, as I'm sure I've mentioned before. He has severe asthma, requiring breathing treatments 3 times a day...He also takes Singulair for allergies...And he suffers from severe excema, which requires two different prescribed medications to be rubbed all over his body twice a day. He's got an inhaler for his asthma too, though since he's been on the breathing treatments, it doesn't get used as much. All this in itself can be stressful.

I am tired. Tired of everything we do not being enough.

We asked the caseworker recently about going ahead and starting the adoption process for the girls. Know what she said?? She said she wanted to wait until everything with Andy was all worked out. Otherwise it'd be like "separating them".
Ummmm...hello??? They are ALREADY separated!! That makes absolutely no fucking sense. What happens if the judge decides to let Andy's fosters keep him?? Shouldn't make a difference whether they are already adopted or not. I think she just doesn't want to deal with the paperwork if you ask me. You would think that DHS would be happy to get two more kids out of the system.

Last time we went to a counseling appointment with Andy, the CASA worker was there (Court Appointed Special Advocate...works for the kids) and we mentioned what the caseworker had said about adoption on the girls to her and the therapist. Neither one of them could believe the caseworker said that. We are supposed to bring up adopting the girls next time we go to court...if we don't, the CASA worker is going to. So we will see what the judge says about that situation.

Also, in counseling this last time, we got asked basically how serious we were about Andy, and getting him in our home. They questioned our commitment to him. We basically told them that if we weren't serious about it that we would not have already put ourselves through all the shit we have already. They say they were asking because it might come up in court. Kinda pissed us off, really.

BTW...to Brady's Mom: We haven't yet completed the adoption on the kids, we are still just foster parents. It's been a long, difficult road that we are still going down. More about that later, I'll email you sometime, okay?

So, how do I feel about all this??? I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm a good mom...other times I feel like I suck. I hope you guys don't think differently about me now that I've talked about Destiny like this. I do love her...but it is different than the way I love Meghan. I don't know what it is. Maybe because Meghan was the answer to my prayers I've had for 12 years for a baby of my own. Technically she's not "my own" but she's as close as I'm gonna get.

That's all I can think of to say right now...

My 11th Half-Nekkid Thursday

So, last week I posted a picture of the sexy little number that MrKB bought for me, and it seems to have received good reviews. I also mentioned that this outfit came with a matching thong, and that I had a pic of the rear view that I had decided not to include.

After receiving several requests, and after much deliberation on my part, (my backside is not one of my favorite body parts) I give you.....










THE REAR VIEW! Happy HNT! :)






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Coming Up on My 5,000th Visitor!

How exciting is that?? I've only been blogging since October...I can't believe there's already been almost 5,000 visitors to my little place! Who will it be?? Be sure to check the sitemeter waaaay down at the bottom of my blog and let me know in the comments if it's you, mmmkay?

Now, I was tagged by Heather , and I promised I'd get it done a.s.a.p. This is actually perfect since my brain's just been swimming with all kinds of things I can't seem to get down on "paper" so to speak.

Basically you list the first sentence of your blog for each month of 2005. Since I didn't start blogging until October, this will be a relatively short one. I will go ahead and throw in January '06 to be fair.

October '05: "Ok, so here I am...my first post on my shiny new blog!" *MrsCoach had the honor of being my very first commenter. :) *

November '05: "See what happens when I go trying to change things on my blog?!?" *That was when I was first learning how to add a blogroll...you can see I eventually got it figured out.*

December '05: "On this day 4 years ago, my sister had her first baby...my niece Angelina!" *I had SO hoped she'd be born on my birthday two days later...which happened to be my 30th.*

January '06: "OK, here's the deal...I'm curious as to how many of y'all actually come by my little space on a regular basis." *calling the lurkers out here...Thanks so much to all you guys that commented!*

Okie doke, so that's it! Now I tag: SignGurl(Jenn) ...get to it girlfriend! :)

I Know, I Suck...

...at blogging lately. I've got all kinds of things in my head to talk about, and then I sit here and just draw a blank. Does this happen to anyone else?? I've still got nothin' at the moment, but since I finally put them on the computer, I thought I'd post some pictures from Christmas. Anyone mind?? No?? Good, 'cuz even if ya did, I'm posting them anyway, so there!
Andy investigating the goodies in his stocking...and posing happily with his new remote-control truck. I think these are the first pics I've ever posted of Andy. See how short his hair is?? The day before we went to pick him up for his visit he apparently got ahold of some scissors and commenced to cutting his own hair...not just once, but TWICE!! In the SAME day! Now, you KNOW that if he'd done that while in our care that his fosters would've raised hell about it. But that's a rant for another day.
Destiny with her stocking....Notice how there's a different stocking in each of the pics?? That's 'cuz MrKB messed up and gave the kids the wrong stockings. Took a couple minutes to realize his mistake since they got a bit of the same stuff. Figured it out when Andy pulled bracelets out of what he thought was his stocking and looked at them like WTF???
Mommy's favorite present! This was actually taken a couple days after Christmas....we were so busy trying to catch Andy and Destiny opening stuff we didn't get any pictures of Meghan! My Mom and Dad did though...The pic of her in the gift bag would've been perfect, but right there in front of her mouth is the clear hanger thingie attached to the bag from where it hung at the store....damn...wish I'd noticed it before I took the picture!! May try to edit it out later.
This one WAS taken of Meghan at Christmastime...she was all worn out from all that commotion, wrapping paper, and bows, so she fell asleep while PaPa was holding her. And I know, the date says the 23rd...we did Christmas that night at my parents' house.
This last one isn't Christmas related...it's more a "first". This is Meghan in the process of eating one of those baby "Biter Biscuits"...cookie-like thing that smells like graham crackers. It was so cute I had to take a picture! :) Hope you enjoyed seeing these pics!

My 10th Half-Nekkid Thursday

For HNT this week I thought I'd show y'all what MrKB bought for me the other day. We were out shopping and I saw this sexy little ensemble and sweet talked him into getting it for me. He did, and said it was a belated birthday and Christmas present. AAAAHHHHHH!!!! NO HE DIDN'T!!! NOT THE DREADED "COMBO" GIFT!!!!!

Actually, you had to buy the nightie and the robe separate, so I guess technically it was two different things. LOL Oh, and it also came with matching thong. *wiggling eyebrows*....I have a pic of the rear view I almost posted with this, but decided against it. At least for this week..... ; )

Calling All Lurkers!!!

Ok, here's the deal...I am curious as to how many of y'all actually come by my little space on a regular basis. Some of you I already know as regulars because you comment often...and I love ya for it!

According to my sitemeter, I have an average of 65 hits a day, not counting Thursdays obviously, and only about 10 or so peeps comment with any regularity.

So, humor me, please....leave a comment today, even if just to say "Hi" and let me know you were here. Thanks so much! :)

Happy New Year!!

Well, since I am still kinda new to the blog world, I don't have that much to reminisce about as far as blogland goes. I do know that I have met some truly awesome people since starting my blog! I also discovered the phenomenon that is HNT and I love it!

2005 definitely brought extreme changes to my life. You know how they say "a baby changes everything"? Just imagine suddenly going from having no kids (at home anyway) to having a baby AND a toddler in the space of a month! Oh my gosh, y'all can't even begin to know all I've been through this year, and I am still going through. It has been wonderful, awesome, frustrating, scary, and all kinds of other emotions together.

2006 is going to bring more challenges as we continue to fight to bring Andy home permanently, and to get all three of the kids adopted and out of DHS custody. I hope it will all work out in the end.

So, here's to a great New Year! I hope you all have your dreams come true!

Happy Birthday Destiny!

Dear Destiny,

It's been six months now since you came into our lives and changed it forever. It has certainly been quite an experience!

You took right to us with no problems even after all you've been through in your short life. Before you came to live with us, you had already been in four different foster homes and you were only 2 1/2!
You sure have changed in the last half year...your speech is better, though you are still hard to understand a lot of times, which can be very frustrating to both you and your Daddy and me when you can't get across to us what you are wanting to say. Even more frustrating is when I don't hear what you are saying and say "What?"...you'll repeat whatever it is even quieter than you said it the first time! Oh, I'm having SUCH a hard time trying to explain to you what "louder" means! You've become more independent, saying "I do it!" when it comes to a lot of things, especially getting dressed. I try to let you "do it" as much as I can, but you still need help at times.

So, today you are 3, or "free" as you say...LOL...I guess that's how most little kids say " 3" at first. Lately you have become quite the diva! You've been demanding, wanting what you want when you want it...you've been possessive, everything to you is "mine!"...and most aggravating, you've been throwing temper tantrums when you don't like something, crying and hollering at the top of your lungs! Oh my gosh, I hope you outgrow this particular phase soon!

Your Daddy and I want you to know that even with all the changes that have happened in our lives since you (and Meghan!) came along, all the drama, frustrations, and tears, we both love you so very much and can't imagine life without you anymore! We can't wait to see what happens next... you do bring lots of happiness to our lives, no matter what else happens!

Happy Birthday Destiny! I hope the day is joyful and full of surprises for you!

Love you forever,
Mommy

My 9th Half-Nekkid Thursday

Here we are....at the end of another year (well, in a few days anyway). For this week's HNT, Osbasso wanted us to do something a little different, kind of a "Best of HNT" thing and choose our favorite HNT photo from past posts.

I've only been doing HNT for a couple of months now, so I don't have a lot of pics to choose from. Most of mine have been of my kids, or parts of them. This HNT pic is my favorite because it was when I chose to be bold and really put myself out there. This is as half-nekkid as I've ever been on the internet...so I give you...for an encore performance.....

My Belly! :)

Notice I am not a "skinny bitch"...and that's okay, 'cuz I'm loved just the way I am! :)

Happy HNT!! For more nekkidness, go see the Grand Poobah of HNT, Osbasso! Just click on the button with the lady in lingerie in my sidebar.

And So It's Over...

Another Christmas, that is...Ours went pretty well, even though we've been crazy busy the last few days.

All the kids got quite a haul...Andy loved his bike, though unfortunately we didn't get to let him ride it yet. We had him on Christmas Eve, and it was pretty chilly outside and not good for his asthma. Wouldn't you know that the very next day it was nice and warm and a beautiful day! Had to have been damn near 70 degrees! It was so funny, right before he left to be taken home by MrKB he gave his bike a hug and a kiss while saying "Bye Bikey!" LOL Kids just crack me up sometimes...

As for MY goodies, I got some nice stuff...I got not one, but TWO of the new Garth Brooks boxed set of cd's (one from Mom, one from hubby), a Tigger t-shirt and two sets of Tigger slipper socks, 3 porcelain dolls (2 of them are a set of kissing dolls), some manicure stuff, a makeup set, Beanie Babies, a set of very cool jammies...I think there was more, but that's all I can recall at the moment.

MrKB got a new PS2 game, "Gun", that he's playing right now, 2 DVDs (Star Wars Revenge of the Sith and Fantastic Four), some Stetson Black cologne, a Monster Garage coffee mug set, gift card for WalMart, LOTS of chocolate candy...which made him happy, 'cuz he's a chocoholic...new tennis shoes, a miniature Van Gogh painting set, and ummmm...I don't know what else.

Can't even begin to tell ya all the stuff the kids got! LOL

Christmas was wonderful, but I'm so glad it's over now! I slept until noon today, and I still feel exhausted! My house is a wreck, there are still presents everywhere that need to be put away, or put together, and the general clean-up needs to be done. Right now I don't wanna!! Think I'm just gonna be lazy and hang out in my cool new jammies all day...I do need to go to the grocery store sometime today though, the baby needs formula.

Gotta go for now, Meghan is tired and raising hell...gonna try to get her down for a nap.

Merry Christmas Y'all!!

Whew....we are ending up having 3 days of Christmas. We picked up Andy Friday evening after MrKB got off work and went straight over to my parent's house for a wonderful dinner and to open presents. (I'll update ya on all the goodies later)

We will spend Christmas Eve at MrKB's Mom's for awhile...probably having another dinner and opening more presents. But first, in the morning our kids will open their presents from us here at our place. We only have Andy with us until 6pm Sat, so we told him that we talked to Santa and he's gonna be making a special stop at our house just for him, since he won't be here on Christmas day. He seemed excited about that....I got their stockings all filled and waiting, and the bike is back out of hiding. I absolutely cannot wait to see the kids' faces in the morning!!

Sunday we'll be at MrKB's Aunt's house with his Mom's side of the family to exchange gifts with people whose names we drew....the kids will probably get even MORE presents, and we'll have yet another dinner. WooHoo I won't have to fix dinner for 3 nights in a row!! (I hate to cook, but have to anymore since the kids came along).

Gonna be a really busy weekend for us! MrKB gets Monday off from work, so he'll be able to recover from all the running around we'll be doing. Didn't get a Christmas bonus though...cheap asses!!! Ah, well....

Anyway, just wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas, and whatever else you may be celebrating, I hope it is perfect in every way and wonderful new memories are made.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!

And to all a Good Night! :)

The Second Meme and Christmas HNT

Ok, so yesterday I mentioned I'd been tagged with two memes. The first one ended up being so long I decided to post the second one today. Heather over at "A High and Hidden Place" got me with the 5 Weird Things meme.

*on a side note...can someone PLEASE tell me how to link to other blogs I'm referring to in my posts?? I want to be able to do it by just putting Heather or whatever instead of the whole web addy.*

"The first player of this game starts with the topic "five weird habits of yourself," and people who get tagged need to write an entry about their five weird habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged and link to their web journals. Don't forget to leave a comment in their blog or journal that says "You are tagged" (assuming they take comments) and tell them to read yours."

Alright, so...five weird habits...have to think on this one a bit!
1. Whenever I read the newspaper, I HAVE to fold the pages back on each other EXACTLY. I don't read the paper all spread out in front of me...I will read it kinda like how you would fold a magazine back around itself (does that make sense??) and I will fold the crease opposite of how it is to start with. I can't stand for a newspaper to get all messy while I'm reading it.

2. Before I get in bed, I will straighten the covers...then after I get into bed I will pull the top edges of the sheet even with the comforter (and blanket too, if there is one)...then I will fan the covers until they are situated just how I like them. This drives MrKB nuts!!

3. When I do my laundry, I always do it in a certain order...girls' clothes, then colors, whites, jeans then towels. I don't know why, I just do...it bugs me if the order is out of whack.

4. Like Opaco said on his 5 weird thing meme, when I'm going to sleep I have to lay on my stomach, and rub my foot along the bed. It relaxes me...except I don't scoot down and hang my feet off the edge...can't stand that.

5. And finally...this is something that I don't do as much anymore, but still do sometimes...When I'm eating Crunchberries cereal, I will eat all the "crunch" part first, then as I'm eating the berries I will count them.

Ok, that was harder than I thought!! I'm supposed to tag 5 people now, so I tag:
April
Roximoon
Kaliblue
Duff
KateHopeEden Yep, I wanna know weird stuff about y'all!
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Now, for my Christmas HNT...According to Osbasso, we're supposed to choose 3 other HNTers and post what we would get them for Christmas if we had the means to. So, I pick: Aisha, Ty, and Jenn (Signgurl)
For Aisha: I would buy you the coolest pair of leather gloves ever to replace the Trinity-like gloves your sister was so quick to give away. In fact, I'd buy you two pairs, so you'll always have a back-up pair!

For Ty: I would pay for all the high tech stuff needed to keep tabs on your wife's growing belly, and pretty much guarantee a beautiful, healthy baby.

For Jenn (Signgurl): I would buy you 12 gift certificates, enough for once a month for a year, to a Luxury Day Spa...so you can relax and be pampered by hot tubs, facials, and deluxe massages by a gorgeous masseur. You deserve it!

There we go! Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone! Happy HNT!

I Got Tagged!

Actually, I got tagged twice with two different memes. April got me first, so here we go...this one's kinda long, but you might learn something new about me.

Put an "X" by all the things you've done and share it with your friends.

1. (x) Smoked a cigarette. Yeah...unfortunately started smoking when I was 19. Still working on quitting.
2. ( ) Crashed a friend's car.
3. ( ) Stolen a car.
4. (x) Been in love. Of course! I am truly, madly, deeply in love with my husband! And yes, I'd been in love before him, but not this way.
5. (x) Been dumped. A couple of times...usually it was me that initiated breakups.
6. (x) Shoplifted. For some reason, when I was a kid, I stole some Hot Wheels cars. Don't really know why...
7. (x) Been fired/laid off. I don't know anyone that hasn't at some time or another.
8. (x) Been in a fist fight. Not really...I did get jumped by a boyfriend's ex once though...she just didn't like me. I would've fought back, but when she started on me she knocked me down and my hearing aid went flying off into the grass...I was too busy trying to find it to hit her back. Stupid bitch.
9. (x) Snuck out of your parent's house. Yeah, and got caught too.
10. (x) Had feelings for someone that didn't have them back. Isn't that what a crush is???
11. ( ) Been arrested. No way!
12. ( ) Gone on a blind date. Nope. Never needed to.
13. ( ) Lied to a friend. I don't think I have anyway...I try to be honest.
14. (x) Skipped school. Twice...and I got caught both times! Ended up with ISS (In School Suspension) both times.
15. ( ) Seen someone die. Thankfully, no.
16. ( ) Been to Canada. Had opportunities to when we were on the road, but since our cat rode with us, we didn't go into Canada.
17. ( ) Been to Mexico. Been right on the border, but not actually there...someday I will!
18. (x) Been on a plane. Yes, and I hate every minute of it...I have a fear of flying.
19. ( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire. WTF would I do THAT for?!?
20. (x) Eaten sushi. Does tasting it count?? I thought it was nasty.
21. (x) Been skiing. Yep, both snow and water. I like snowskiing better, but can't do that in Oklahoma.
22. (x) Met someone in person from the internet. Yep, a friend from Australia who had a layover in Dallas, and a really good friend in Virginia.
23. (x) Taken pain-killers. Hasn't everyone??
24. (x) Love someone or miss someone right now. I love and miss my two stepdaughters who live with their Mom in Texas.
25. (x) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by. Lazy days!
26. (x) Made a snow angel. Not since I was a kid.
27. (x) Had a tea party. Again, not since I was a kid.
28. (x) Flown a kite. Yeah...it's kinda boring.
29. (x) Built a sand castle. Nothing too fancy though.
30. ( ) Gone puddle jumping.
31. (x) Played dress up. I was a little girl once ya know.
32. ( ) Cheated while playing a game.
33. (x) Been lonely. Of course.
34. (x) Fallen asleep at work/school. School is a given...but when I worked at the daycare, I would lay right down with the kids at nap time and have a little snooze.
35. ( ) Used a fake I.D. I didn't even know where to GET one.
36. (x) Watched a sunset. Lots more of those than sunrises, lemme tell ya.
37. (x) Felt an earthquake. A little one when I was in San Diego...most Californians prolly didn't even notice it.
38. (x) Touched a snake. Our class pet in the 6th grade was a boa constrictor.
39. (x) Slept beneath the stars. In a tent, but that counts, right?
40. (x) Been tickled. I hate that.
41. (x) Been robbed. By a family member of all things.
42. (x) Been misunderstood. Who hasn't??
43. (x) Petted a reindeer/goat.
44. (x) Won a contest. Spelling bees are contests, aren't they?
45. (x) Ran a red light. It happens.
46. ( ) Been suspended from school.
47. (x) Been in a car accident. I rear ended a minivan when the brakes on my car failed. Fender bender, nothing serious.
48. ( ) Had braces. I wish I had.
49. (x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night.
50. (x) Had deja vu. Always freaky when that happens.
51. (x) Danced in the moonlight. Yep, and nekkid too!
52. (x) Liked the way you looked. Occasionally...I clean up nicely.
53. ( ) Witnessed a crime.
54. (x) Questioned your heart. Big time.
55. ( ) Been obsessed with post it notes.
56. (x) Squished barefoot through the mud. Hell, my Grandmother has pics of me and my cousins taking a mud bath.
57. (x) Been lost. Only 'cuz hubby refused to stop for directions!!
58. (x) Been to the opposite side of the country. Been to all the States except Alaska and Hawaii.
59. ( ) Swam in the ocean. Too scared of sharks and jellyfish.
60. (x) Felt like dying. Yes, of a broken heart.
61. (x) Cried yourself to sleep. I had a miscarriage.
62. ( ) Played cops and robbers.
63. (x) Recently colored with crayons. I have small children, what do you think?
64. ( ) Sung karaoke. Nope, but get me drunk enough and I might!
65. ( ) Paid for a meal with only coins.
66. (x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
67. ( ) Laughed til some kind of beverage came out your nose.
68. (x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue. Just the other night, actually.
69. ( ) Danced in the rain.
70. ( ) Written a letter to Santa Claus. If I did, I don't remember.
71. (x) Been kissed under the mistletoe.
72. (x) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about.
73. (x) Blown bubbles. Of course.
74. ( ) Made a bonfire on the beach. Ain't no beaches in Oklahoma.
75. ( ) Crashed a party.
76. (x) Gone roller-skating. Are you kidding?? Before driving, the skating rink was THE place to be on weekends.
77. (x) Had a wish come true. I have kids now, don't I?
78. ( ) Worn pearls. Not real ones, no.
79. ( ) Jumped off a bridge.
80. ( ) Ate dog/cat food. Ewwww!
81. ( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them.
82. (x) Kissed a mirror. Only when leaving sexy messages in lipstick!
83. ( ) Sang in the shower. Can't hear myself, so it'd be kinda pointless, don't ya think?
84. ( ) Had a dream that you married someone.
85. ( ) Glued your hand to something.
86. ( ) Got your tongue stuck to a flagpole. I'm not that stupid.
87. ( ) Kissed a fish. Again, Ewwww!
88. (x) Sat on a rooftop. The roof on my Grandparents detached garage is low-hanging and easy to climb on.
89. (x) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
90. (x) Done a one-handed cartwheel. Not very well.
91. (x) Talked on the phone for more than six hours on one occasion. I was a teenager once, of course I did!
92. (x) Stayed up all night. Lots of times.
93. (x) Didn't take a shower for a week. That's easy to do when you live on the road.
94. ( ) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree. An apple, no...a pear, yes.
95. ( ) Climbed a tree that had a tree house. Scared of heights.
96. (x) Been told by a complete stranger that you're hot. Been awhile.
97. ( ) Ever had a one night stand.
98. (x) Ever missed someone so much it still hurts to think of them. My Grandpa and my Nannie.
99. ( ) Ever loved someone that you knew wouldn't love you back.
100. ( ) Ever been to a professional baseball, football, or hockey game in a stadium. No...been to a semi-pro baseball game though.
101. (x) Went hiking in the mountains.
102. ( ) Smoked a cigar.
103. ( ) Had a crush on someone you worked with but never told them. Nope, never had any crush-worthy coworkers.
104. (x) Wished you had the chance to change your profession. Yep, and I did too...From Cosmetologist to Preschool Teacher.
105. ( ) Ever cremated and kept the ashes of a pet you cared a lot about.
106. (x) Wished you could live your life over again beginning at age 21.
107. ( ) Been baptized.
108. (x) Rode a horse. Yep, not too bad at it either...I manage to stay on.
109. ( ) Sent flowers to someone you never met.

WHEW! This was longer than I thought!! I'm not gonna tag anyone, but I hope somebody else will do it anyway. I'll do the other meme tomorrow, Heather, okie doke?

Hope You Like Pictures!

Ok, I couldn't get these to post the way I wanted them, but here we go...

This first pic is of Meghan and her first time to stand up in her Pack 'n Play. She's really got it down now, pulling herself up on anything she possibly can.

Another pic of Meghan standing...in this one she's holding onto the couch in the living room. I think I took her by surprise... I just called her name and she turned around to look at me and I snapped the picture. I can't believe how fast she's growing!!

LOL...this is something I just HAD to take a picture of...She was sitting in her Exersaucer while watching a Baby Einstein DVD. She must have been extra tired from all the standing, 'cuz I looked over at her and she was fast asleep! :)


And finally, these three pics are the results of the shopping frenzy! You saw the tree before, now see it after! I still have a few presents left to wrap, but the majority of the ones here are the kids', not counting their Santa gifts. Well, except for the bike....just had to show y'all!

Now that I'm done worrying about how Christmas is going to be, I can hardly wait for it to get here!! LOL

Gotta go....gonna make a fringed blanket for my Aunt whose name I drew this year! It was decided we'd make gifts instead of buy them, so here I go...

Shopping Frenzy

We went shopping again tonight. Got just about all of it done now! WooHoo! All we have left to get is something for my Mom...she is SO hard to shop for! She's into the Sudoku puzzle thing, so I might get her a book full of them...or maybe just a gift card to Barnes and Noble. Yeah, that'll do.

Andy is gonna be thrilled to see what Santa brings him! He's getting a shiny new bike! He has one, but it's a small bike and he's been wanting something bigger. See what you've done, Christmas Angel?? A little boy's wish is gonna come true on Christmas day! That kid is gonna make out like a bandit this year between me and MrKB, his fosters, and both our parents and Grandparents. Spoiled rotten, I tell ya!

Destiny is gonna do just as well...We didn't get as much stuff for Meghan though. We figure she's gonna be more interested in the wrapping paper and bows anyway. LOL

Speaking of Meghan, she's reached another baby milestone. She can now pull herself up into a standing position! I took a picture of her the first time I saw her do it in her Pack 'n Play. I don't have it loaded on the computer yet...when I do, I will post it for y'all to see. Won't be long now and she'll really be running me ragged! I wish she could stay little like this for awhile. I waited so long for a baby and I'm enjoying every minute of her baby days....well, almost every minute...she's gotten quite vocal lately, and at the top of her lungs too!

MrKB is feeling better...ended up going to the doctor, and just as we thought, he has strep throat. Got him his OWN antibiotics (y'all can quit worrying now) and today is the first day all week that his throat didn't hurt so much. He ended up missing four days of work. Ouch...We didn't take Andy for the weekend, obviously we don't want him to catch this crap. We'll see him next weekend. I hope he wasn't too disappointed...I'd promised him we'd make Christmas cookies.

I've got more stuff to tell y'all about, but Meghan is raising hell and I need to go get her to sleep. I'll try to post about it tomorrow...technically it IS tomorrow, since it's after midnight, so I guess I should say later today. That's it for now, though. Hope y'all are having a good weekend! :)

Ugh!!

MrKB is sick. He took yesterday off work, and he's home again today. He's pretty sure he has strep throat. He's got a doctor's appointment tomorrow, but my Mom said he should cancel it 'cuz she's got some antibiotics that she'd just got recently she'll give to him. She ended up being allergic to them and didn't use but a couple days worth. All I know is he's been lying around on the couch like a lump either watching TV or sleeping. Sure hope I don't get this crap...or worse, the kids. That's all I need...

So anyway...finally managed to get around to typing up and printing off some copies of my Christmas newsletter for the cards. Now I just need to get around to signing them and getting them addressed and sent off if I want people to get them before Christmas!

I've got a Christmas angel! One of my blogger friends has the most generous spirit ever, and has helped me to be able to have some presents under our tree for the kids. Thanks to her, their first Christmas with us is going to be great! I don't want to mention her name, because I don't think she'd want the attention...but she knows who she is, and I just wanted to acknowledge it here on my blog. I've never had anybody be so sweet and caring before, and I appreciate it more than she'll ever know. So, a million Thanks to my special Christmas Angel!!! :) You are truly amazing, and have got to have some awesome karma coming back to you! THANK YOU!

This morning I had to go to the doctor for a hearing test. I applied for Disability for my hearing impairment, and they needed more medical evidence. They set the appointment and the test up at no cost to me, so I went...this is one test I knew I wasn't gonna fail, that's for sure. After all, I'm completely deaf in my left ear and have had a hearing aid in the other since I was 10 years old. Hard to believe it's been 24 years now. The good thing about this test is I found out that my hearing hasn't gotten any worse over the last 10 years. I worry about losing what hearing I have left sometimes...

Nothin' else new to report...I'm so boring, I know! LOL

It's Been a Long Weekend...

So...MrKB went and picked up Andy on Saturday morning. Then he went and picked up my niece and nephew (MIL's kids)...they were going to spend the night at our house, since MIL kept our girls for the night on my bday. (Sat. was MIL's bday).
I don't know what the hell was wrong with these kids this weekend. They have drove both me and MrKB nuts! Andy has gone home now, but the other two are still here and my niece keeps complaining she is bored. Argh....

Destiny was a little brat all day yesterday after the kids got here. She got in trouble I don't know how many times! Just general not minding, doing stuff she knows she's not supposed to, that kinda thing. Even Andy got in trouble a couple of times!

This morning MrKB woke me up saying "Help! These kids are driving me nuts!" I got up and my nephew was in time out...apparently he'd been beating up on both his sister and Andy. I don't know what's got into him lately either...he thinks he's slick too, that we have no clue what he's up to. When he's lying, he's got a dead give away...he'll reach up and scratch his head, EVERY TIME! Like he's thinking hard on what to say.

I've had very little patience this weekend. Usually I'm a lot more patient with the kids...must be PMS, I dunno. All I know is I was ready for these kids to GO HOME!! My in-laws didn't come to pick them up until damn near 7pm, and they'd been here since around noon yesterday. I kinda felt taken advantage of, really. My girls didn't stay at her house that long on my birthday...we didn't even take them over there until in the evening and MrKB picked them up by 2 in the afternoon the next day.

Sigh....I'm probably just tired.

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Bet Y'all Are Dying to Know...

How things went on my birthday...

Mom came by in the afternoon and brought me my bday present: Season 10 of Friends on DVD!!! Just what I wanted! Also a card with 40 bucks. :) Daddy came over just a few minutes later and brought me a different printer for my computer. The one he'd brought before we couldn't get to work like it should. This one is bigger and a lot nicer...finally when there's something I want to print out, I can!

Then Mom, Dad, the girls and I went out to lunch at a Mexican restaurant. MrKB was working and couldn't go. It was great! I had chicken enchiladas with sour cream sauce. The employees sang Happy Birthday to me while I wore a purple sombrero on my head....bet I was a sight! It was all in fun.

Later, after MrKB got home, we took the girls to MIL's for the night and went out to the new casino at Remington Park. It's not bad, and we were actually doing pretty well on a quarter game, but played it all back again. I tried to tell MrKB we should cash out, but he insisted on playing some more. Oh well, it was fun, and we'd only put 20 bucks in it anyway. Never mind that we were up over 150 at one point...

We went back home sometime after midnight, and I would've had birthday sex, but MrKB had to be up at 4:30am to go to work. I told him to make it up to me later. ;)
Since the girls spent the night at Grandma's, I got to sleep in...woke up on and off a bit, but didn't get up for good until 1pm!! I hadn't slept that long in AGES!! It was great!

All in all, I had a better birthday than I thought I would.

Tonight is supposed to be our night to pick up Andy for the weekend, but his foster mom called last night...apparently there's some Christmas party thing going on for the kids at the therapist's office this evening and she wanted to know if we'd pick him up Saturday instead. Which is fine, really, but she should have called earlier in the week, not waited til the night before the day we're supposed to get him, don't you think?? You know she didn't find out about this party the day before, she's probably known about it all week. I'm debating emailing the caseworker about this...

Not much else going on...still haven't been able to do any Christmas shopping, have had to pay bills instead. I'm starting to worry that we won't be able to give the kids anything for their first Christmas with us. Sigh... I keep telling myself it will all work out, but I really don't know. And I know you're thinking "Why did you go to the casino then?" Because it was my birthday, dammit, and we only had 40 bucks anyway.

Hope y'all have a great weekend!

My 8th Half-Nekkid Thursday

WooHoo! Two months worth of HNT! How time flies...

I haven't felt well today. Didn't do a whole lot...posted a few cartoons I'd gotten in an email that made me chuckle, checked out a few blogs, took a long-assed nap!

Last night I put a Weatherpixie on my blog in the sidebar. Would you look at that?!?! 14 fuckin' degrees!! In Oklahoma!!! It wasn't anywhere NEAR that cold on my birthday! And to top it all off, it freakin' SNOWED today! Grrrrr...I hate snow! We got at least an inch, maybe 2 here in the city. The snow doesn't bother me half as much as the cold though. Hope it doesn't last long!

Anyway, for HNT this week I've got a picture of warmer days. This is 2yr old....ah, bloody hell....I'm tired of referring to the kids by ages! This is DESTINY, enjoying the kiddie pool this past summer. We were at my grandparents' house, and it was a spur of the moment thing, so she didn't have a swimsuit, only her Pull-up. You shoulda seen that thing after it was waterlogged! LOL...it was hanging way down in the back showing half her little butt! Too funny...

As for the other kids' names....5yr old is Andy...baby girl is Meghan. :)

For more Half-Nekkid fun, go see the Grand Poobah of HNT: Osbasso! Just click the half-nekkid chick on the red button in my sidebar. Happy HNT Y'all!

Just For Fun

Na Na Na Na Na Today Is My Birthday!

SO...today I am 34! Dang, I'm gettin' old. At least I feel it sometimes.

No big plans today....MrKB is at work and we won't be going out or anything since we're broke. My Mom is coming to pick me up in awhile to take me out to lunch. She's also getting me a birthday cheesecake...yum!

Other than that, it's not gonna be much of a day. Oh well.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

The Rest of My Weekend

MrKB and I got the tree set up and the branches all straightened out....put the garland on, then I proceeded to put hangers on the ornaments. 5yr old and 2yr old were so cute, running back and forth to me to get more ornaments to hang on the tree. They did a wonderful job, and the tree looks beautiful! Sorry the pic is a little blurry...If you look close, you can see some of my Christmas Teeny Beanie bears hung on the tree. One year, we did our tree almost entirely decorated with my beanie babies...I have a pic of that somewhere, so maybe I'll post it another day.

Also got out some of my other holiday beanies and put them around the living room. My computer is now all decked out for Christmas! :)

Today 5yr old and I went to see the Train Show at the fairgrounds. My Daddy is a member of a model train club (HO scale) and they have a big display at the show every year. It was just him and me...kind of a "bonding" thing for us. He seemed to enjoy looking at all the cool set-ups, and they even had a kids' hands-on area set up with train tracks and trains they could play with. He LOVED that!

All in all, it was a pretty good weekend....Oh yeah, the bday party at MickeyD's went good. Chaotic, as you can imagine, with about a dozen kids all hyped up on excitement and cake. My niece is quite the diva, actually, and was a bit of a brat. Too much excitement in one day for her, I guess. No major meltdowns, but lots of whining. Oh well.

Hope y'all had a lovely weekend, and remember, TOMORROW is my birthday, so send pressies!! LOL Cash will do in a pinch. ;)

Happy Birthday Angelina!!

On this day 4 years ago, my sister had her first baby...My niece Angelina! We call her "Angel" for short, but an angel she ain't! :)

My niece being born was simultaneously joyful and painful for me. As you know from my last HNT, I had been trying for a very long time to get pregnant. My sister is younger than me, and had always said she didn't even want to have kids. When she got pregnant, it broke my heart. I felt like I'd been punched in the stomach when I heard the news. My Mom was the one who told me, because my sister was scared to let me know. She knew it would be painful for me.

Angelina was born 2 days before my 30th birthday...I'd hoped she'd be born ON my birthday, but I guess she couldn't wait any longer! Since that day, she's been spoiled rotten, lemme tell ya! I love her with all my heart and she's brought me much more joy than pain. Happy Birthday Angelina! I love you!

In other news, we went and picked up 5yr old yesterday for his weekend visit. Went to Big Lots and got a tree for Christmas! 20 bucks for a 7ft. tree with 300 lights on it already! They didn't have much of a selection as far as ornaments and stuff, so we went over to Wal-Mart and got a bunch of decorations. We haven't had a Christmas tree for about the last 3 Christmases since we were on the road in the big rig. The tree we used to have, and all our decorations, were lost when we moved. That really sucked since it was ornaments from my childhood and stuff like that.

Today we'll be going to McDonald's for Angelina's birthday party. 5yr old LOVES MickeyD's, so he's really looking forward to the party. Right now, though, I am doing laundry so the girls will have something to wear (that's warm enough!) and MrKB is getting a spot ready for our tree. It's gonna be a busy weekend!