What??? Nobody's Missed Me???

Hmmmm.

So there was no HNT from me this last Thursday. My internet service got shut down on me at like 10:30 p.m. Wednesday night. I was not a happy camper! Sorry for missing out. :(

Anyway...

Y'all are not gonna believe what happened to me last night! MrKB and I took the kids to Grandma's so we could go out for awhile. We went out to the casino, of course, but didn't go to Remington this time...we went out to Newcastle. We didn't have much, only around $120. We played together for a bit, then separately, then I was playing a penny machine on $20 MrKB gave me to play with...lost it, but not before he lost his! He gave me another $20 to put in the machine, since it hadn't been doing too bad, and we played together again for awhile. About 20 minutes or so later....I HIT THE FREAKIN' JACKPOT!!! And I DO mean jackpot...I was betting max, which was $1.25 a spin, and I WON $1,900!! That's right...ONE THOUSAND NINE HUNDRED DOLLARS!! Yay me!

'Bout freakin' time I hit one...thought it was never ever gonna happen to me. I'll have to report it next year at tax time, but that's okay.

So guess where we went after that?? Called Grandma...told her we'd give her 100 bucks to go ahead and keep the kids for the night, and we went shopping! Yes, at Wal-Mart...at that time of night, your shopping options are pretty much limited, ya know. It was soooo nice to go in and not worry too much about how much things cost. We didn't go THAT nuts...got things we've wanted to get for awhile, but never had the money to spare.

Got a new digital camera...a Kodak Easy Share C310...nothing really fancy, but it's a definite upgrade from the old one. This one is 4 megapixels with a much better zoom feature...and I just now realized while looking at the camera, that we can take videos with this one too! Cool...couldn't do that with the old one. AND...we bought bundled with the camera, the printer dock that goes with it...which means we can print our own 4x6 pictures straight from the camera. Very cool! Ought to save tons on having paper pictures made this way. Photo paper refills are not near as expensive as I thought they'd be, either.

Let's see....we also bought another Pack 'n Play for Meghan. We're tired of having to pack up the one we had every time she goes to stay the night at Grandma's...it's a pain, even if it's fairly simple to do. It's heavy, and we have other stuff to take too, like her walker. Did I tell y'all we got her a walker a couple weeks ago?? I think I did...she really zips around the house now! Won't be long and she'll be walking on her own. Anyway, now we have one Pack 'n Play for our house, and one for Grandma's. Got her a new car seat, too...she'll be a year old on the 13th, and in Oklahoma babies have to be at least 20 lbs AND a year old before you can place them facing forward in a vehicle. Her current carseat can be turned around, but it's just bulky, so we got one more like Destiny's.

Spoiled ourselves and splurged on a set of sheets for our bed....400 thread count Egyptian cotton, baby!! Soooo soft, and makes us feel elegant!

Got Destiny and Meghan both several pairs of sandals to get ready for the warmer weather. Got Meghan her first pair of "walking" shoes, and got Destiny a new pair of tennis shoes. She keeps getting sores on her feet, and we couldn't figure out why...turns out the shoes she had are a size and a half too small!!! WHY do little kids not tell you that their shoes hurt their feet??!? They still go on her feet fairly easily, so I had no idea they were so small on her. Maybe now her feet won't get the sores...the ones she just makes worse by picking at them! We shall see...

What else?? Hmmm...we put a holding fee down on a 2000 Isuzu Rodeo we may be buying in the next few days. What?? I didn't tell ya about that either??? MrKB came to me the other day and said he'd seriously been considering buying a "new" car instead of a motorcycle. You could've knocked me over with a feather!! He was SO set on getting a bike, and then he goes and throws THAT at me! He says he knows we could use a second car more than we could use a motorcycle, and besides, if he waits one more year he'll have more to spend on a bike than he would this year. We filled out the application for financing today on the Rodeo, but won't find out until Monday if we get it or not....Hope so...this is a nice vehicle...VERY clean, and only has 83,000 miles on it....the other car we were looking at was a '99 Dodge Durango, but it's a little bigger, which means not as good gas mileage, and it has 153,000 miles on it. I'll let ya know what happens on the "new" car front.

Other than all that, there's really not a whole lot going on with me right now. Worked on some crosstitching during the time I wasn't able to get online. I've been working on a baby announcement thing since we got Meghan last year. I don't think I'm even halfway done with it yet, and she's gonna be a year old in less than two weeks!! Gah!! Where did the time go?!?

Oh, and Diva....guess what I found yesterday??? I found BABY MAGIC LOTION!! I've been looking for it for you for awhile now, and the Wal-Marts here aren't carrying it either...seems most places aren't...but I found it at Walgreen's!! Do ya have a Walgreen's in your neck of the woods??? Let me know, and if you don't, I'll go pick a few bottles up and send them to you, mmmkay???

Alrighty then...I gotta go get some sleep!

Tagged Again!

Sorry I haven't posted anything since Thursday. Really nothin' going on in my boring life right now. Spent the last couple of days giving my house a good cleaning, getting ready for a caseworker visit. Taking care of the kids, laundry...that's about it! Gawd, I'm so boring! I need tequila!!!

Anyway, I've been tagged with a couple of meme's so that gives me something to post, at least! Both tags came from Kimberly...Thanks, girl! Otherwise I'd be sitting here just staring at the cursor just taunting me...daring me to post something!

The first one I've done before, but it was a five weird things instead of six weird things meme. So, let's see...

1. When I read the paper, I HAVE to fold the pages back on themselves exactly. Can't stand for the paper to get messed up while I'm reading it.

2. I'm very picky about how the covers on the bed are when I go to sleep at night. Many times I've woke hubby up with my cover arranging! This is something he's told me bugs him, but I can't help it!

3. I hate cooked carrots so much I will pick the carrot pieces out of a pot pie before I'll eat it.

4. When I do laundry, it has to be done in a certain order...girls' clothes, colors, whites, jeans, then towels.

5. When I'm going to sleep, I will lay on my stomach and rub my feet along the bed....it relaxes me.

6. And finally...this is something that I don't do as much anymore, but still do sometimes...When I'm eating Crunchberries cereal, I will eat all the "crunch" part first, then as I'm eating the "berries" I will count them.

OK, now the second Meme:
1. Accent: OKIE!! :)
2. Booze of choice: Tequila
3. Chore I hate: Cleaning the bathroom.
4. Dog or cat: Cat
5. Essential electronics: Computer...TV
6. Favorite perfume/cologne: Estee Lauder Beyond Paradise or Lady Stetson
7. Gold or silver: Gold...preferably with diamonds!
8. Hometown: Oklahoma City
9. Insomnia: Often
10. Job title: Mom and Domestic Goddess
11. Kids: 2 precious little girls
12. Living arrangements: 3 bedroom apartment w/ my family
13. Most admired trait: Loyal
14. Number of sexual partners: Currently, only my husband. Throughout my life? Nunya bizness!
15. Overnight hospital stays: Never
16. Phobia: Snakes...heights...flying stinging things!
17. Quote: "Live like you were dying."
18. Religion: None really.
19. Siblings: 1 younger sister.
20. Time I wake up: Around 10am
21. Unusual talent or skill: I can touch my nose with my tongue.
22. Vegetable I refuse to eat: Brussels sprouts and cooked carrots.
23. Worst habit: Staying up too late.
24. X-rays: Only dental.
25. Yummy foods I make: Green chile burros.
26. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius

I'm not gonna tag anyone this time, but sure would love to see someone else do them...so go ahead, if ya wanna!

My 20th Half-Nekkid Thursday

Okay, I'll be the first to admit this is not me in the pic. I did take it, though! LOL

So, I was sitting at the computer yesterday, and Destiny was in her room playing. She'd been kinda quiet for awhile, so I went in to check on her. She's fine, of course, just having herself a little tea party or something...I don't remember now what she was doing.

Anyway, I looked down on the floor, and I saw THIS:

HALF NEKKID BABY DOLL!! I couldn't help it...I laughed my ass off when I saw it. I don't know what made her think her shoes and socks were going to fit her doll. But she's smart, do you see? The shoes are actually on the correct feet! LOL That's my girl!

Now, go and see OSBASSO for more Half-Nekkid fun! Happy HNT!
Click the red button with the lady in lingerie over there ------> for guidelines.

Oh, and ladies....check out the eye candy in my post below! ;)

Ok, Can I Just Say...

YUM!!!!!!
Yeah, I'd do him...He's definitely on "the list"! :)

I've Discovered MySpace

Actually, I can't really say I "discovered" it...I've been hearing about it for awhile now, though, and finally decided to go explore. I can't believe who I've found over there already! Several of my cousins...a few fellow bloggers...some people from high school...AND...get this, my first real love! I've tried finding him online for years!

OMG Meghan JUST said "Uh oh"!! LOL So cute!

Anyway, I got in touch with him, and I guess we'll see what happens. He actually called my Mom's house looking for me about a year and a half ago, (she's had the same phone number since I was 8) and left his number. I called him once when we were still on the road a lot but didn't get to talk long at all. Then I lost his number.

Kinda weird, ya know, talking to him again. I remember a few years after we'd broke up my best friend at the time told me that he'd said he didn't want anything to do with me. No reason given, so I don't know what that was all about, but I didn't see or talk to him again for several years. Then right before we'd moved to small town Oklahoma...matter of fact, we were in the process of moving...we ran into him at a restaurant we'd stopped at for lunch. Of course, I looked like hell since we'd been moving stuff all day...sweatpants, hair just in a ponytail, no makeup...bleh. He STILL has the power to make my heart pitter patter and give me butterflies in my stomach. Why is that?!?! I am very happily married now and don't want to be with him or anything like that.

I guess part of me somewhere deep down still has feelings for him. After all, he WAS my first real love.

Anyway, come check me out on My Space! And if anyone knows how to make a button for my links in my sidebar for my MySpace site, please let me know!! Their code for links isn't working right for me.

Happy First Day of Spring!!

You wouldn't know it was spring by stepping outside my door right now. It is still cloudy and pretty chilly. The rain has stopped for now though. Wonder if the burn ban got lifted...

I had a picture posted here, but it was only supposed to be here temporarily so I could change my profile pic....so now it's over there--------->

Made someone smile to see it here, and that makes ME smile! :)

Moving On...

No, no...I'm not moving on from blogger! Just from my "bad" review. I ain't going anywhere, don't worry. Thanks, y'all, for your reassuring comments that you like my blog just fine the way it is...it means a lot more to me than THEIR opinion.

Anyway...

When I got up out of bed Saturday morning, I came into a living room that looked like a tornado had gone through. It seems my husband decided to rearrange the furniture, and Oh. My. God. what a freakin' mess!! Wish I'd took pictures to show you guys. I hate when he gets like that, 'cuz more often than not, he'll start a project and not finish it for days, or maybe weeks. Drives me nuts!

I asked him if his Chi was off or something, and if he'd decided to do some feng shui. (pronounced fung schway...I found that out when I was checking some stuff out about it...did not know that!) Heather, aren't you proud of me? Thought you might get a kick out of the cartoon I found too. :)

To get it all done and the living room back together, I had to help. SO not how I'd planned to spend my Saturday! It took all day! Gotta say, though, I do like the new arrangement. It really opened the room up and there's more room for baby stuff! Guess it made for a productive Saturday.

So I Got Smacked

Curiosity got the better of me and I submitted my blog for a review over at I Talk 2 Much and long story short, they don't like me. I got NO smacks, apparently based on my last few posts. It also seems that they really look down their noses at those of us who participate in Half-Nekkid Thursday.

Bummer.

My 19th Half-Nekkid Thursday

Guess what? Tonight sometime I will have my 10,000th visitor! So be sure to check the sitemeter at the bottom to see if it's you!

The great and powerful Os, Grand Poobah of all things Half-Nekkid, has decreed that this week we incorporate some green into our HNT pics in honor of the coming St. Patrick's Day. I didn't have a lot to work with, so how's this? GREEN EYES!!!

No??? Okay, well then, how about THIS???

For more Half-Nekkid fun, go and see Osbasso!! Click on the lady in lingerie over there in my sidebar for guidelines. Happy HNT! :)

The Redbud Tree

...is a sure sign of Spring in Oklahoma! Yay!

I took this out behind our apartments...there is a little creek that runs behind it. Lots of trees and when I walked back there just awhile ago I saw the Redbuds are in bloom! :) They are also the Oklahoma state tree. Just a random bit of info...btw, this is not the prettiest example of this type of tree, but I was excited to see it anyway!

Here's a picture of a much prettier version, found on the web:

Bill Engvall

...of "Here's your sign" fame...I just LOVE him!!!

I'm watching this:





right now...I've seen it a dozen times already and it STILL cracks me up!

Here's your sign!

Monday, Monday

My weekend went pretty well...MrKB and I went out to the casino Friday night and left the girls with Grandma for the night. Wish I could say we won a whole bunch of money, but nope. Still had a good time though!

Saturday we went running around for awhile with my Mom before going to pick the girls up from his Mom's. Went to some garage sales...I found a bunch of snowman things for next Christmas, a cute little pair of tennis shoes for Meghan, and some other little odds and ends. Not a lot of garage sales going on yet, but it won't be long! It was a nice weekend weather-wise, mostly in the 70s. Now it's cold again, 45 degrees and the wind is blowing pretty hard, making it feel like it's the 30s. Freakin' Okie weather!

After garage sales, Mom took us out for lunch to celebrate MrKB's birthday. He said to tell y'all Thank You for the birthday wishes, you helped make his day!

Sunday we went to Andy's birthday party. It was held at this place called "Maximum Dodgeball". That place kinda sucks, really. It was basically just a small gym floor and a few wooden benches. The kids had a good time throwing balls back and forth at each other, though. No rules to it, just throwing balls and trying to hit someone. In my opinion, not the best place for a kid's birthday party, but oh well.

Meghan is 11 months old today! I can't believe her first birthday is just a month away! Where has the year gone?!? Still no teeth yet. Yesterday she was running a low-grade fever and was kinda fussy, so maybe they'll make an appearance soon. I need to start figuring out what we're going to do for her birthday. Will probably just have a get-together here at our house with family or something. I do want to get one of those little round birthday cakes just for Meghan...we'll sit her in her high chair, put it in front of her and just let her go to town! :)

Nothing else going on with me...Gotta do the domestic thing and clean the house, do laundry, etc. Blah. Wish I could get a maid, but I suppose having those things to do keeps me from being totally bored every day. May spend next weekend Spring Cleaning. I need to go through the girls' clothes and find stuff for a garage sale at the end of the month in my parents' neighborhood. Lots of baby stuff for sure....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MY SWEETIE

Sweetheart,

Today is your birthday, and I wanted to take a moment to let you know how very much you mean to me. We've been together for just over 12 years now, married for 11, and I am still so in love with you!

You make me feel so special, and you always have. My confidence and self-esteem has grown so much since you've been in my life! I am a very lucky woman to be married to my very best friend.

This past year has been our most difficult yet...not because of problems between us, but the challenges that have been thrown at us one after the other since we had two beautiful little girls come into our lives. With all it's challenges, it's also been the most rewarding, and I can't wait for the day they are adopted and officially "ours"! You are a wonderful Daddy, and your girls absolutely adore you!

I love this picture of Destiny brushing her Daddy's hair, and I love that we have a picture of your now 13-yr-old Cherokee doing the very same thing at that age. :)

Destiny really is "Daddy's Girl"!

Meghan, at least right now, is more "Mama's Girl", but I know she loves her Daddy too! After all, she does say "DaDa" a whole lot more than "MaMa"! No matter what, though, she's always going to be your baby girl!

And of course....I love you very much! You are my heart and soul, and every day with you is something I'm deeply thankful for.

Happy Birthday Baby! I hope the day is great! :)

Sometimes I Wish I Had a Job to Go To

I'm lucky in the fact that MrKB makes (barely) enough money for us to get by without me having to work. But there's days like this when I'm bored to death that I really wish I had a job. It would at least give me something to do outside of my normal daily routine with the girls.

Yep, I'm bored.

Unfortunately, right now DHS prefers that I stay at home with the kids. I don't mind, really, but sometimes you get to a point where you really crave adult conversations and interaction. It only goes so far with a 3 year old and an almost 1 year old, I'm telling you. Maybe when this is all over and we get the girls adopted I will either go back to school or work. Until then, I'm stuck at home every day doing the same old, same old with the girls. Routine is good, I know, especially for Destiny at the age she is, but damn.

ANYWAY...what to blog about? This weekend is going to be birthday filled. MrKB's birthday is tomorrow, and Andy's is on Sunday. Not sure what we'll end up doing for MrKB's day, but Sunday we'll be going to Andy's birthday party at some place called "Maximum Dodgeball". Yeah....might be a lot of fun (it will be for the kids) but then I might just come home with a massive headache from listening to a bunch of screaming and hollering 6 year olds.

Oh, MrKB didn't end up getting financing for his motorcycle from the other place either. They came back and said there's something on his credit report showing that we owe $40,000 to a bank we used to have an account with back in 2001. FORTY THOUSAND FREAKIN' DOLLARS!!! There is NO fuckin' way. We never took out any loans or anything like that, so we have no idea where this is coming from. So now we gotta get a copy of both our credit reports (I did this online back in September '05, and this was not on there) and see what all is on them. Then we're gonna have to contact this bank and find out what the hell they think we owe them that much money for. We really don't have a clue. If it does for some reason turn out to be a legitimate debt, which I really doubt, then we'll have no choice but to file bankruptcy.

When I got our credit reports online back in September, all that was on them was mostly old medical bills and stuff like that. Damn sure wasn't showing any debt for no $40,000. And what I don't understand is why didn't someone else tell us this before MrKB went and had his credit checked several times trying to get this bike? I know it hurts your credit the more inquiries have been made on it. Sigh.

He's not giving up getting a motorcycle yet, though. He's just not gonna be getting a brand shiny new one like he was wanting. Now he's gonna have to settle for something "new to him" and find one used that he can pay cash for straight up. And yes, we are getting enough back from taxes that he'll be able to do this and he is about giddy with the thought of being able to go up to someone and plop the cash in front of them and say "Here ya go, gimme the key!" LOL I'm not letting him spend the entire tax return on a motorcycle though. I have some major dental work I have to get done (and not looking forward to in the least) and I also want us to be able to go out to the casino and have a REALLY good time just once!

Our family reunion is coming up in April. I can't wait! It's like a mini-vacation for us since his family does reunions for a 4 day weekend, Thursday to Sunday. We won't be able to get there until Friday, but that's okay. It's held every year at Quartz Mountain State Park, which is a beautiful area. I've gotta get my fishing license soon, 'cuz I definitely plan to do some fishing! Also can't wait to see the looks on people's faces when we show up with TWO kids when before we didn't have any. LOL Should be fun!

That's all I've got for now. Y'all have a great weekend!

My 18th HNT & My 100th Post!!! :)

WooHoo! Can you believe it?? My 100th post!! And on a Thursday, which means HNT...how cool is that?

Before I get to the HNT, I promised Scotty that I would answer a question he posed to his readers in exchange for him participating in the 7 Songs meme. Always one to keep my promises to the best of my ability, here's the question: "Who in your life has had the most influence on you and why?

My answer? First person that came to mind was my Daddy. This man is not my biological father, but long ago earned the right to be my Daddy. I was just a year old when he and my Mom got married, and he immediately adopted me as his own. He's taught me so much over the years...he made sure I knew how to change a tire, how to change the oil in my car, how to check and fill the various fluids...anytime I had a question about something he would often grab a pencil and paper and either write things out or draw me diagrams of how something worked. (I particularly remember this happening when I asked him how gas got to the engine in a car...he drew a complete diagram and I even learned how pistons worked that day.)

My Daddy taught me the importance of staying in school. He led by example, too..he was taking college courses working on his Bachelors and then Masters degrees in Physics throughout pretty much my entire school career. I know he wishes I'd pursued more college myself, but I haven't yet...I will though! I want nothing more than to make my Daddy proud of me.

I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for him, so I definitely consider him to be the biggest influence in my life, along with my Mom. :)

Now, without further ado...I finally have a pretty bra worthy of being the subject of an HNT picture...so here is my first boobie shot! Enjoy, 'cuz no tellin' when this will happen again!

For more half-nekkidness, go on over to Osbasso's! He'll hook ya up!

Happy HNT! :)

7 Songs Tag

I was tagged by Midwestern City Boy for this one!

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

Okay, well, I rarely listen to the radio, so I'm never current on the hit songs of the week. Instead I listen to CDs mostly. I have a couple of mixes that a friend made for me that I've been listening to a lot lately. I'll list my 7 favorites between these two CDs. That work for you? Good!

1. "Picture" by Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow- I REALLY like this song a lot. MrKB and I are thinking about singing it on karaoke out at our family reunion this year. That should be fun!

2. "In the Air Tonight" by Phil Collins- Definitely a classic!

3. "Doing It All for My Baby" by Huey Lewis & the News

4. "Unforgettable" by Nat King Cole- in my opinion, one of the most romantic songs EVER.

5. "Whiskey Lullaby" by Brad Paisley & Alison Krauss- A sad, but absolutely beautiful song.

6. "Angels Among Us" by Alabama- This song has brought tears to my eyes, not so much because it's sad, but it just talks to my heart. I believe in Angels!

7. "My Life" by Billy Joel- I've loved this song for years and still do today!

So, there ya go...my 7 songs. I've got quite the mix there, I think...yep, I like all different kinds of artists, but I notice I tend to lean towards the sad or romantic songs for some reason. I do like a number of get-up-and-dance type songs too, but there wasn't room for them here.

I'll get MrKB's 7 songs from him when he gets home from work. :)

Oh yeah, I almost forgot! The 7 people I'm gonna tag...

1. Roximoon
2. Boo
3. April
4. MrsCoach
5. RedneckDiva
6. Scotty
7. Monica (the Cracked One) :)

Yep, get to it! I wanna know what songs you're into right now! Have fun!

Been Busy!

Hope y'all had a good weekend! Mine was okay, just busy.

Friday we went to the DHS office to get some forms the caseworker said she had for us to use to try and get Meghan's SS#. All it ended up being was a copy of the court proceedings last time we had court, and an application for a SS# signed by her. So then we had to go BACK to the SS office, and this time we got called into the back instead of at a window. (I have no idea why.) We told the guy there what was going on and that we needed her SS#, showed him all our paperwork, he talked to his boss and now we have a SS# for Meghan!! YAY! Turns out she's had one all this time. Probably from when the hospital sent the information on her. Just nobody at DHS bothered to go find out what her number was...hell they didn't even bother to make sure they got a copy of her birth certificate, and just assumed her last name was the same as her bio mom's. It's not...it's the same as ours. Just like all the rest of the kids, with the exception of Kelsey, who is their mom's daughter from when she was married long ago.

That's a whole 'nother set of problems right there. Now I've got to get the caseworker to get Meghan's medical card changed to have the right name on it.

After all that, we were finally able to go down and get our paperwork in to have our taxes filed. We'll find out tomorrow what kind of refund we'll have.

Saturday we went out to the motorcycle shop to see about getting MrKB the bike he's been wanting forever. Financing for this particular bike was turned down due to "limited credit". A curse, I guess, of trying to avoid credit cards! All is not completely lost, because there's another place they sent us to for financing. I really hope it goes through because MrKB is driving me nuts on how much he wants a motorcycle. He told me that day that he "has everything he needs to be happy except for his bike." LOL Besides, it would be a good "second vehicle" that he can drive back and forth to work. It would leave me with the van so I'm not always stuck at home all day while he's at work, and it gets better gas mileage too.

Sunday I didn't do a whole lot of anything. Just hung around in my jammies all day and read some blogs, played games at Pogo. Needed to clean my house and do laundry, but I figured it'd still be there today. At least my kitchen is clean!

My nephew spent the night last night 'cuz MIL had to go to some sort of meeting at 8am this morning. I'll find out what that was all about when she comes to pick him up. He's STILL not in school anywhere. All the schools she looked into getting him transferred to are not taking new students right now. I kinda thought she might have this problem, with it being so close to the end of the school year. I just hope he doesn't end up having to repeat his grade from all the work he's missed. Poor kid.

This next Saturday is MrKB's birthday...he'll be 36 this year. That's one of the reasons why I really hope he gets his bike, that'll be like the best birthday present ever for him. Yes, I worry about him riding a motorcycle, but it's not like he's never rode before. Besides, he's a professional driver and has never had an accident. I figure since he drives 18 wheels all the time, 2 is not gonna be a problem! I am making sure that he definitely wears a helmet at all times though...can you believe there is not a helmet law in Oklahoma??! Makes no sense...gotta wear a seatbelt, and kids have to be in carseats until a certain age, but it's okay to splatter your brains all over the road on a motorcycle!

Well, that's it! Nothing incredibly exciting, but it's my life in a nutshell.

Oh yeah, one more thing....MrKB and I made time for each other last night, if ya know what I mean! :)

This...

Makes me smile! :)

Sorry, No HNT Here Tonight

I'll be back for HNT next week, I promise! I'm just not feeling it tonight. Don't worry about me, I am doing a bit better. Spent most of the evening curled up in MrKB's arms, which was just what I needed. :)

Check this out, though...He called the caseworker again today to find out about getting Meghan's S.S.#. She asked us AGAIN if we had her birth certificate. The answer was still NO...duh! Apparently DHS doesn't have it either (or she just doesn't want to mess with it) so now I have to go down to the Health Department tomorrow and get a copy of the birth certificate myself, and then go to the S.S. office and get Meghan a number. In other words, doing their job for them. Wish she would've told us this two weeks ago when we first called. We could've had taxes filed by now.

In other news....Destiny has been wearing "big girl panties" during the day since this past Saturday. She's doing really well, only had one minor accident on Saturday night. She was so cute when we had gone to MrKB's Aunt's house for a get-together. She kept pulling the panties up from her jeans to show anybody who'd look, and saying "Look! Like Mommy's!" LOL Only problem she's been having is when I put pull-ups on her for nap or for the night, she's been peeing in them again big time. I'm talking filling them up so full it looks like she went swimming in them or something! The whole reason I decided to try panties on her was because she was doing so well at staying dry all the time, even when sleeping. Now it's like she thinks that just because she has a pull-up on that it's alright to pee in them. I hope she gets over that real soon!

Anyway, y'all go and enjoy HNT, and I will check you out later, mmmkay?

I'm Okay...I Think...

Yeah...that last post was kinda depressing, wasn't it? I'm sorry you guys.

I am in a funk. I don't feel like even getting up out of bed in the morning right now, but I have to for these little girls. I'm sure it's probably a hormone thing, PMS ya know. Which when I think about it just depresses me even more because it means I'm gonna have yet another period that I don't want.

This happens every month. See, I still have hope that I will get pregnant (by some miracle) and every month when a period starts it's still like a punch in the stomach. I guess since it's been almost 13 years of this now I should probably accept the fact that it's never going to happen. But I just can't. I don't know how to explain it.

This has been a long and difficult road.

Please don't think that I don't realize I am lucky to be Mommy to Destiny and Meghan. I know this, and I am grateful for the chance. There is always going to be that want, that need, to have my own child. Unless you've experienced the heartbreak of infertility yourself, I don't think you can truly understand.

Okay, I'm gonna stop this here before I just cry like a baby. I want to leave you with something that was shared with me yesterday. Please click the link and check this out...maybe then you can begin to understand.

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Does She Know How Much I Love Her?

Okay, so I'm drinking tonight. Destiny was driving me nuts and I started out drinking tequila to relax a bit. I'm feeling pretty good right about now and I've been thinking. (That can't be good!)

Been thinking about how lucky I am to have these two little girls in my life. I really am...I tried for so fuckin' long to have a baby, and it still hasn't happened. My brother-in-law and his girlfriend don't know how lucky they were to be able to have children, and they kept fucking up and not doing what they needed to do to take care of them. You do realize, that between the two of them, there are SEVEN kids...unbelievable!! How can you have that many kids and not do everything you can to take care of them?? How can you take it for granted?? I would feel like the luckiest person just to bring one child into the world.

Seven kids. They don't have a one of them. I just don't understand how God works. Why keep giving people like them kids that they know they can't take care of??? Why deny the ones that want more than anything to have children a baby??

It's not fair.

I know I have two of those kids now, but until they are adopted, they aren't "mine" yet.

I still want the experience of being pregnant, of bringing a child into this world. I want a piece of me and MrKB. Is that too much to ask???

I know my BIL's fuck-up is my gain, at least with two of the kids...the little girls I always wanted, but still...I want a part of me out there.

That said, I've been thinking about how much these two little girls mean to me, and there's a song by Garth Brooks that sums it up:

IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES by Garth Brooks

Sometimes late at night
I lay awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark

And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one

And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed

So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinkin' of
If tomorrow never comes

*Edit* Just so y'all know, I didn't end up drinking the other night. Don't want you to think I'm turning to the bottle to destress all the time. Last night I did drink, and I drank alone, but that's okay. And I am just fine this morning, don't worry! :)

Hi There! :)

How's everyone doing? Good? Alright! Me? I've been busy!

Thursday was my Daddy's birthday. I had totally forgotten about it! Well, not totally, I'd thought about how it was coming up just a couple days before, but on the actual day I hadn't thought about what the date was until my Mom came by to drop some things off and said something about his birthday. Hate when that happens!

So, once again I wasn't able to get around to everyone's HNTs....we went out to dinner at CiCi's Pizza with Mom & Dad, my sister, and her kids. Then we went to my parent's house for birthday cake, presents, and just to visit for awhile. We got him some Powerball tickets for Saturday's drawing. I told him that if he wins anything over $100 that I want 10%. LOL....kidding, of course!

Today I had to watch my niece and nephew since they were out of school. Speaking of my nephew, my MIL got a letter from the doctor who evaluated him while he was locked up. This doctor says there is nothing wrong with him, that the feelings and thoughts he has are perfectly normal. He also said that the whole point of him keeping a journal was to be able to write down things he might think of that are violent to keep him from acting on them. Also, that the school counselor making his journal public was a breach of confidentiality and that the actions that he took were very wrong.

This was a big relief to all of us, as you can imagine. My nephew has already missed more than 3 weeks of school because of this crap. Mom couldn't even go enroll him elsewhere because of that counselor. He kept saying that "He is a danger to himself and others and I will make sure that he's not allowed in any school." The doctor that sent the letter also included copies for the school and the DHS caseworker that had to come out. Now, at least, she can get him into school somewhere else. She's also looking into getting a lawyer and suing the school counselor, and possibly the school.

Tomorrow we will be going to visit Andy. He's got some birthday parties to go to, so we won't have him for the weekend, even though it is our time to have him. It's alright, though, we don't want to deny him going to his friends' parties. He's missed out on some before already. So, we're all supposed to go meet at a McD's over by his house, along with the kids' Grandfather and older sister. Sucks that I have to get up early on a Saturday, but oh well.

That's all my news for now....got some tequila and I'm waiting for it to get cold. Plan on drinking a little tonight, so if there's any drunk posting, you'll have to forgive me!

One more thing, if you haven't already, please stop by my Johari window and pick 6 words you think describe me best. You can find it here. Thanks y'all!

My 17th HNT

Wow, Thursday already! It's been a busy and tiring week for me, as you can imagine. Meghan is doing much better today, no fever all day! Say it with me now, WOOHOO!! Like I posted before, she is sleeping A LOT, and it is apparently doing her a lot of good. Oh, and she doesn't seem to be allergic to penicillin.

Anyway, this week's HNT is a couple of pics of what I have been dealing with...took these the other night, and thought they'd be good for HNT.

First is a picture of what Meghan looked like for the majority of the time when she was awake. Doesn't she look pitiful?? The redness on her face is partially from a rash around where her pacifier goes, and partially from having flushed cheeks due to the fever.

Next is a shot of her sleeping snug and safe in my arms. I love holding her while she sleeps, it's one of the times I really feel like a Mommy...I don't know why. I treasure these moments because I know it will be all too soon that she's too big to hold like this.

And finally, the same situation from pretty much my point of view:

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Just Have to Do It

So, I've seen this Johari Window thing all over blogland lately...I wasn't gonna do it, but curiousity has gotten the better of me! Please go here and choose the six words you think best describe me. Thank you! :)

Feeling a little bit better today...could be the calm before the storm, I haven't been sick in forever, so I'm overdue to be knocked on my ass.

Is it normal for babies to sleep almost constantly when they are sick?? Meghan slept through the night for about 12 hours and wasn't even up an hour before she was asleep again! I know sleep is the best thing for anybody when they're sick, but my goodness....just making sure I shouldn't be worrying. This is also after she slept most of the day too, off and on, but she slept quite a bit.

Have a great day y'all!

It's Happened...

Dammit. Now I'm sick. Figured this would happen! I've been running a low-grade fever all day today, have a sore throat, I'm achy all over and just generally feel like shit. Who's gonna take care of me???

Meghan is doing a bit better...still runs a fever up to 102 off and on, and still has diarrhea. I figure the antibiotics will take a couple of days to really start working and getting rid of this crap she has. She is sleeping quite a bit still, and has a cough, but it's not as bad now. The best thing is she is starting to act more like herself.

Thank you guys for all your kind comments and concerns for my precious baby girl! It's greatly appreciated, y'all are awesome!

Sorry for the short post, but I'm gonna go lay down on the couch and take care of me. Bleh.

Quick Update

Well, we got up early this morning and got the house cleaned up for the caseworker's visit....then she didn't even show up!! Somehow I had a feeling that would happen. She was supposed to be here at 1pm...she called at exactly 1pm to say she wasn't going to make it...she didn't want to get out on the roads, which weren't bad, just nasty looking. She's supposed to come out tomorrow instead.

Speaking of the caseworker...We want to get our taxes filed and done. We need the baby's social security number, so we called her to find out what it was. Get this: SHE DOESN'T HAVE ONE!! Why? Because nobody from DHS ever went and got her one!!! This really irritates us. Meghan is 10 months old and this should have had one a long time ago. This should have been done while she was still in the hospital for that 3 weeks after she was born. Caseworker says she won't be able to do it until the 28th, which I think is crap...it should be made a priority since it's something that should have been done ages ago. We were waiting to get MrKB's W2s from his old company, and now we have them...so now we are just waiting for a SS# for the baby. Sheesh! This is also probably why her Medicaid doesn't have the right last name. It's got her bio-mom's last name, not the last name that all her other brothers and sisters have, and that the hospital told us was on her birth certificate, which is the same as ours!

Anyway...

Read your comment on the last post, Jenn, and I'm a step ahead of you. Meghan was still getting a fever up to 102 today, so we called the doctor to see if she could get her in to see her this afternoon. As a matter of fact, MrKB had the phone in his hand and was looking up the doctor's number when the caseworker called. Got her an appointment at 2:30, so off we went. Turns out that Meghan has a bit of an upper respiratory infection, and also a slight ear infection. Poor baby! No wonder she hasn't been feeling well! Doctor said that Destiny had probably had a rotavirus this week, that caused the diarrhea and fever that she had, (but Des' fever only lasted a couple of days)...then Meghan got the rotavirus first and then probably the respiratory infection which in turn caused the ear infection. That's why her fever got up so high. She got a prescription for Amoxicillin...you know, that bubble gum tasting medicine we all remember having as kids. LOL... Just hoping she doesn't end up having an allergy to penicillin. She's never had any medication like that before, so we just don't know. Have to keep an eye on her for a few doses and make sure she doesn't have a reaction.

After the doctor visit, we went to grab something to eat, then get some groceries, then we had to drop off her prescription to be filled. When we got home at around 5:30, Meghan went to sleep and has been asleep since...it's now 10pm! That trip out and about just wore her plumb out. The day's wore me out too...I went to take a little nap around 6:30 after I got back from picking her medicine up and MrKB woke me up at just before 9:30! I could probably go back to sleep and stay asleep until morning.

Hopefully now Meghan will be back to her old self soon!

My Poor Baby Girl!

We almost took Meghan to the emergency room last night. She'd been running a fever since Friday, but last night it got up to 104.4, and my poor baby was definitely not acting herself. At that point all she would really do is lay there. Not crying, not fussing, nothing. Her toys sat on her exersaucer all day, she didn't even have the energy to throw them off onto the floor! Toys usually don't stay there more than 15 minutes at the most.

Called my Mama 'cuz I was starting to really worry about her. She said we should try to get her temperature down before resorting to taking her to the hospital. So, we gave her some children's Tylenol (again!) and put cool rags on her neck and chest. Oh, she didn't like that part at all, at least not at first, that was the only time she had any fight in her at all. About an hour later we got her temp down to 100.1, and put her to bed.

She's better today, but not 100%. She had a fever of 103 this morning and between doses of Tylenol, she went back and forth between 100-102 most of the day. Checked her awhile ago and it's only 99.3. Hopefully the worst is behind us. Poor little baby! Also today we saw her smile again. :) Hadn't seen it for the last two days. I'm just very thankful that this whole thing hasn't included vomiting!!

Now, for good news....Friday night Meghan took her very first step!! It was just one, 'cuz when she did it, I wasn't expecting it at all and I yelled "Ahhhh!! Did you see that??" LOL She grabbed hold of something, and looked at me like "WTF are you hollering about?!?" I couldn't help it, I got excited. :) At this rate, she's gonna be walking before she ever gets any teeth!

Destiny now has her own room. We took Andy's stuff out of his room and put hers in there. We figure Andy is not gonna be here enough to justify him having his own bedroom. We're putting his bed in Meghan's room with her, along with his dresser and toy box. I think Des likes her new room, 'cuz earlier today MrKB was walking by and she said "My dresser, my bed, my toys, ALL MINE!" LOL...kids!

Our caseworker is supposed to be coming over tomorrow for a visit, and the house is a wreck. I just don't have the energy. I had it clean just a couple days ago for gosh sakes!! Maybe we can call and reschedule.

What a Week!

This has been quite the week for me. I didn't get to go to everybody's HNT's like I normally do, and my comments suffered for it! LOL One thing keeping me from it was my keyboard...it was fine on Wednesday night, but Thursday it started acting all wonky. Numbers were coming up when I was pushing letters, and if I hit the enter key while commenting it just erased everything I had typed! It got very frustrating, so by the end of the day, I made MrKB give me money to go get a new keyboard. Ahhhhh...that's much better!

In other news...both girls are still sick. Basically nasty colds and diarrhea. Destiny greeted me TWICE this week in the morning with shit all over her, and her bed. The second time it happened, it stunk up the whole freakin' house! Ugh. I think that happened on Thursday.

Destiny is getting better now...still has diarrhea, but not as often. She's getting her appetite back finally and I'm having her drink as much water as I can so she doesn't get dehydrated. She hasn't had a fever since Tuesday, but still has a runny nose and coughs a little.

Meghan, on the other hand, has started having poonamis of her own, and started running a fever last night. It got as high as 103 and I managed to get it down to barely 100 degrees and she went to sleep. Had a temp of 102 again this morning, poor baby. She's at least still taking her bottle and other than being more tired than usual, is acting pretty normal. She's sleeping now and I imagine she'll sleep quite a bit for a couple of days.

I'll probably end up being next, but dammit, I don't have time to be sick!!

Dang, I was trying to thing what else has happened this week, but that's pretty much it. Been keeping pretty busy with two sick little girls, cleaning the house and doing laundry. Whooo, what an exciting life I lead!

Oh yeah, it snowed last night, maybe a couple of inches. Started out as freezing rain and people are idiots when they try to drive on that stuff. Got freakin' cold as hell...think it was 17 degrees outside when I finally got to bed. Brrrrrr! I hate snow. Guess winter has to get in a last hurrah before it makes way for spring...of course, this IS still February, so it might get in a couple of more hurrahs before it's all said and done. Bah. I took a couple of pics when I went outside last night, but I don't know how well they came out. Might try to post them later.

I do have a pic I promised SignGurl I would post a little while back. Jenn, remember your post about PeeWee Herman? Check this out and tell me if you recognize it:

I took this during my time on the road with MrKB. This was out in California somewhere, I don't remember exactly where, but I know it was SoCal. Someday I'm gonna have to do a post with pics I took from all over the U.S., I've got lots!

Have a great weekend, y'all! Stay safe and warm!

My 16th Half-Nekkid Thursday

MrKB and I had a nice quiet evening at home yesterday for our anniversary. We considered going out to the casino the Friday before our celebration. I also forgot to mention that we did treat ourselves to lunch at Red Lobster on Saturday before we went and picked up the girls from Grandma's, and we enjoyed it very much! Thank you to everybody who stopped by yesterday and wished us a Happy Anniversary! Nobody in our families even bothered to call! You guys just made our day!

So anyway....This week's HNT pic is of MrKB's eagle tattoo. For as long as I've known him, he had a little blue fucked up cross on his arm that was the result of a very drunken night, and him and his friends doing homemade tats with a regular needle and some ink. He didn't even remember doing it...noticed it in the mirror the next morning and thought some wise-ass had drawn on him with a pen. He was surprised when it hurt to try and wash it off!

He loves eagles and collects eagle figurines and stuff, so when we finally had the money and the chance to drive down to Texas, I wasn't surprised this was his choice to get the old cross covered up. It's still not finished, he wants to go back and get it colored in sometime in the near future, but I think it looks pretty cool the way it is now. :)

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On This Day 11 Years Ago...

I married my best friend!

We met when I was 19 and he was 21. We knew each other, but didn't really KNOW each other, since we were both always in other relationships, and were too shy to really talk.

Years later, when my boyfriend at the time had gone into the Navy, he was my shoulder to cry on when I felt alone. We got to know each other a lot more, and the more time I spent with him, the more I knew that the guy I was with was not the right man for me.

We ended up falling in love, and on February 14, 1995, after dating less than a year, we got married. I was 23, and he was 25. I have never been happier!

The past year has brought us our biggest challenges yet, and I'm so glad our love is strong enough to face them together. I am truly in love with my best friend.

To my husband:
Baby, I love you more today than the day I married you.

You are my light, my love, my reason for living...my very best friend. I know we'll have many more happy years together, they should be even happier now that we have a family of our own. We tried so hard for so long to have children, and even though it didn't happen as we expected it to, we now have two beautiful little girls to call ours.

Happy Anniversary Darlin' !!! I Love You!!!!

Still Tired But Feeling Better

I want to start out by saying Thank You to all of you who left comments on my last post. You were all very encouraging and your support is always appreciated! It's always nice to know you are not alone when you are feeling down.

I am doing a bit better now. Sent the girls to Grandma's Friday night, where they spent the night. MrKB and I hit the casino and played for hours. Best part of the night was when I won 300 dollars on a quarter game! Yay me! We ended up leaving with about 60 bucks more than we went in with, so that was good.

Went and got some tequila Saturday, and I did a little drinking of the shots...felt pretty good to get a bit toasted and just relax after the kids were in bed. MrKB spent the time playing Grand Theft Auto San Andreas on the PS2, and after awhile we went to bed, but not immediately to sleep! ;)

My house is a wreck now, since I haven't had the energy to clean it. Gonna try to get that done tomorrow, and need to get laundry caught up. Is laundry ever really "caught up"?? Seems like it never ends. I'm glad we at least have a washer and dryer of our own. I hate having to go to the laundrymat or to Mom's to do laundry. At least at home I can be doing other things while the laundry is running.

Meghan is still not sleeping through the night right now...though she did sleep for Grandma!! It figures, doesn't it? It's almost 3am while I type this, and she's been sleeping off and on since around 12:30. Tonight, though, I think it's more than just teething. Seems she is getting sick, or is already sick. When she wakes up she is coughing and it is a nasty sounding cough. One of the barking seal kind...I'm hoping it's just a cold, but could be croup. She's not running a fever, so that's good. Poor baby obviously doesn't feel well...I gave her some nighttime cold and cough medicine, and now that she's asleep again (finally!) I'm hoping she stays asleep. I'm going to keep a close eye on her and if she gets worse I will take her in to the doctor. She's never been sick before, so I imagine she doesn't know what to think about not feeling good! I knew it was gonna happen eventually, but still...my poor little baby girl!

Anyway, just wanted to post a little update...gonna go try to get some sleep myself. Hope y'all had a great weekend!

*EDIT* OK, so I managed to get some sleep. The baby is doing better, still has a cough, but no fever. She did stay asleep finally.

When I went in the girls' room to get Destiny up, I was greeted with the smell of poop. Destiny had a poonami...there was poop EVERYWHERE....on her, on the bed, all the covers...Ugh. She immediately starts crying because she thought she'd be in trouble for pooping in her pants, but like I said before, I can overlook the shits. I'm not happy about it, but I understand she couldn't help it. Took her in the bathroom to get her cleaned up, and while wiping her butt she starts crying hysterically and freaking me out. I'm like "What the hell's the matter with you?!?" ...turns out she's got a bad rash. Poor thing...but I had to keep wiping, the poop was halfway up her back and everything. Finally get her cleaned up then took her back to the bedroom to put some diaper rash medicine on her. I was as gentle as I could be and she still screamed like she's being beat to death or something. Sheesh. Meghan has had rashes that were so bad they bled and she didn't scream like that! It's been awhile since Des had a rash, so I guess I understand...she's probably forgotten how they hurt.

Got the girls breakfast (after thoroughly washing my hands!) and then had to go strip the bed and throw everything in the washer. Really fun way to start my day, lemme tell ya.

Oh yeah, I took Des' temperature and it was 99.7 under the arm...anyone know if you're supposed to add a degree or not when you take it this way? I can't remember for sure. Looks like I'm gonna have two sick little girls for a couple days.

So glad I got that break...

I'm Beyond Tired...

I am freakin' exhausted!!

Meghan is not sleeping through the night lately. Three out of the last four nights she has kept me up VERY late. Last night I was in bed less than an hour, hadn't even really got to sleep yet, and she woke up hollering at the top of her lungs. That was at about 2:30am....I managed to get her back to sleep, then she was up again at 5am...screamed her head off for well over an hour and finally went back to sleep at 7am. Damn. Then there's Destiny, who is up every morning around 9am or so.

The night before, Meghan kept me up until 4:30am, but at least when she went to sleep she stayed asleep until around 10.

No wonder I'm so tired.

Speaking of Destiny....How long does it take to potty train a child?!?! We've been working with her since she came to us last summer to get her potty trained. The people she was with before hadn't even attempted it apparently, since she was in DIAPERS still. She doesn't poop in her pants anymore, hasn't for quite some time, unless she's got the shits, and I can overlook that. But getting her to quit peeing in her pants is driving me insane!!! Her personal record for staying dry so far is four days. That was this last week. Then she went to Grandma's, and that got shot all to hell. She hasn't stayed dry more than one day since. Ugh. I'm so tired of it, and it seems like I'm the only one trying to get it done. Oh, MrKB will take her to the potty if I ask him to, but not without attitude, like "I suppose!" Sheesh.

I am in a funk. I need a break, seriously....like a whole weekend without the kids...no cleaning up after everyone, no laundry, no cooking (which I totally hate, but I have to do it), no dishes to be washed...I need time to do what I WANT to do, not what has to be done. I want to SLEEP. I want to just spend time with MrKB. I wanna go to the casino and win lots of money.

Don't see all that happening anytime soon. Especially not this weekend, since Andy is supposed to be with us.

I want to get the adoption on the girls finished, so DHS and everybody will be out of the picture and we can finally feel like a normal family. I want to get their ears pierced, and I can't even do that until DHS says it's okay. Bah!

Gotta go fix lunch for Destiny now and get her down for a nap. Meghan fell asleep in her exersaucer, and if she stays asleep maybe I can get a nap in too.

Sorry for being a downer...just felt like venting a bit.

My 15th Half-Nekkid Thursday

I can't believe it's already time for HNT again!! Man, I've sucked on posting this week. I apologize for being so boring...just a lot going on lately. I feel like I'm always doing SOMETHING...told MrKB tonight that I don't get days off. I've been feeling more tired than usual, and it's not like I'm really doing more, just...I dunno...I'm just tired. I laid down to take a nap today and ended up sleeping for at least 5 hours!!! Damn...and I'm STILL tired!

Anyway, I know you're here for HNT, not to listen to me ramble on about nothing. So here we go...I was really not prepared for HNT this week, so I pulled up a pic I had on the computer. This week's picture is of Meghan, and I think she's about a month or so old. When she was tiny, and had to poop, she would really grunt and strain, and we always knew when she was pooping. She would get what we called her "poopy face" and one day I managed to get a picture of her while she was doing it. I love this pic, 'cuz it just cracks me up!

She's not so predictable anymore, doesn't make the poopy face...guess she doesn't need to concentrate so hard now! :)
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Can't Think of a Title...

So, hey y'all! I hope everyone had a good weekend. Mine was kinda boring, really.

Friday night Mom-in-law kept the girls for the night and MrKB and I went out. We went out to Remington Park to the casino and had a pretty good time. Won some, lost some, nothing major. Had fun though. Was nice not to have to worry about going to pick up the girls before we went home. Stopped at a 24 hr Mickey D's to grab something to eat on the way home (it was 3:30a.m.!)...got home, ate, watched TV for a bit...then went to bed and had LOUD kids-ain't-in-the-house sex before going to sleep. If you have kids, you know THAT'S always fun! :)

My 9yr old nephew has been diagnosed bipolar schizophrenic. Things started about a month ago when he asked my MIL if he could start going to the school counselor. He said he'd had "bad thoughts" and thought it might help if he talked to someone. The counselor had him keep a journal, and apparently it came time to read that journal. He had written about being angry at different people, Mom, Dad, sister...kids at school. That in itself was not that unusual. He went on to talk about one kid in particular. This kid has apparently been a bully to my nephew. Things he wrote down were like "He makes me so mad, I just want to send him crying home to his Mommy! Because he kicked me, and I want to kick him back." He talks of another time this kid threw a rock at him.

Anyway, the part in his journal that apparently raised red flags was when he talked about trying to come up with a way to "get back" at him. He's also apparently been having thoughts in his head...an argument with his brain, as he put it...as to living or dying. He drew a little picture of what he'd like to do to this kid which showed him "squishing" him until all his blood came out. This was with a picture of the person he says he hears in his head telling him to do bad things.

Because of this, he was locked up in the hospital. Did you know that it's the law now to report this kind of thing to the police?!? The hospital told my MIL that if she hadn't consented to him being put in there, that they would've called the police to come and take him. Man....

MIL just called. She has signed him out of that place. They apparently were keeping him all doped up...on what, we don't know. She also found out that they were not supposed to be giving him anything like that without her permission. They wouldn't let her see his sleeping quarters. It was like he's being treated as a criminal and he hasn't done anything wrong. She wants to take him to another doctor (the one we take the girls to) and have him checked out and get a recommendation for someone else to treat him, as well as a second opinion on the bipolar schizophrenic thing.

It IS quite possible he has this illness. MrKB's brother was diagnosed with it just a couple years ago. It is hereditary, and family members of someone that has it are 3x more likely to have it.

It's all so sad the way things happened. Poor kid is probably confused as hell now. I guess with these days of kids shooting up their schools, the "authorities" probably figure better safe than sorry. I can understand that, I guess....it's not the same as when I was a kid in school. But anyone who's been bullied I'm sure has had their own thoughts of "getting back" at them, or wishing they were dead. I was bullied myself throughout most of my school career. I never would have tried to hurt anyone physically...might have thought about it, but could never have done it. But then again, I didn't have a "voice" in my head telling me to do things either.

I just don't know...this is all so weird! My nephew is a good kid and I don't see him hurting a fly. I guess you just never know. Does anyone out there have any experience with anybody suffering from bipolar schizophrenia??? What helps it?? How was it treated?? Inquiring minds want to know!

My 14th Half-Nekkid Thursday

It's actually appropriate that this is HNT number 14 for me. This week I'm showing y'all the early anniversary present I got from MrKB. Our 11th anniversary is on Valentine's Day, Feb. 14th. :)

I got my bling!! He did good, dontcha think? Did the best I could on the pictures, they really don't do the ring justice. I love it, though!

For more half-nekkidness, go and see Osbasso, Grand Poobah of all things half-nekkid! Click the red button with the lady in lingerie for guidelines. Happy HNT! :)

8 Things That Make a Perfect Partner

So I got tagged by ~Lil Deb~ with this one!

List 8 attributes of the perfect partner. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on a post letting them know they've been tagged. If tagged before, no need to contribute.

Here we go!

1. HONESTY: If a man can't be honest with me, what's the point of having a relationship?? Don't lie to me. I hate that.

2. HUMOR: I love to laugh. Comedy shows and movies are among my favorites. If a man has a sense of humor and can make me laugh, it is a major plus.

3. AFFECTION: Needs to love me for me, and to be able to show it whether we're at home or in public. I need someone that's not afraid of a little PDA.

4. COMMON SENSE: Knows how to use his brain when it comes to certain situations...like, don't put your money and your keys in the same damn pocket!!! (YES, MrKB did it again, lost our last 10 bucks for the week this time. You'd think he learned after losing 575 dollars this way, but noooo!)

5. SENSITIVE: Needs to be sensitive to my feelings. Cheer me up when I'm down, anticipate my moods. Be sensitive to other people's feelings as well.

6. HARDWORKING: I don't want somebody who's lazy. I need to be taken care of too, and if that means for them to go out and have a job to earn the money for the family, then so be it. Don't expect me to do everything. Help out around the house too.

7. HANDSOME: This doesn't mean you have to look like Brad Pitt, but take care of yourself. Take some time to look nice for me, at least now and then. SHAVE for god's sakes.

8. GOOD IN BED: Let's face it...the quality of the sex in a relationship really matters. I'd hate to be married to a man that didn't have a clue what he's doing down there! Quantity isn't as important to me as quality. I'd rather have great sex just once a week than boring, non-satisfying sex 3 or 4 times a week. Pay attention to where my buttons are!

Okay, so there you have it. I'm not going to tag anybody for this one since a lot of people have already done it...if you haven't and you decide to, let me know so I can check it out! :)